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I am very shortly going to have to make a decision; something that I want to do or something that pays me better. How annoying that I cannot simply cannot choose the one that I would be happier doing and not lose a moment to wondering. Not that I'd do anything differently, but I really wish I weren't quite in my current financial situation. Grr. Ultimately, I suppose that I wish I weren't sitting here thinking that I could be fairly happy and paid adequately if only I could figure out some nifty job that I am sure exists but I cannot conjure to mind. Naturally, this may be all in my mind, but I don't really know. I am bothered by the level of motivation that I have been approaching my employment search with also, but at the same time unable to procure any more energy than that which I have been using. Sigh. I suppose I should just go for the immediate job that will pay the bills and worry about finding something better later, if I deem that necessary. I suppose that is where I am going to leave this for now. Bother.