Fic: Blankly As Walls (The Office, Pam)

[kyrafic]

Blankly As Walls
Fandom: The Office
Summary: Motherhood.

Notes: Title from Sylvia Plath's Morning Song. No spoilers whatsoever.

Comments

[dollsome]

Oh, holy God, I read all of this teary-eyed and feeling a little bit sick. It's just -- I know that the show is all JIM AND PAM: THE BABY IS FINALLY COMING!!!, all hearts and cheesy promos and They Are The Happiest Little Family Ever, but I feel like Pam had this brief, bright chance where it was like maybe she'd get to pursue her dreams and figure her life out on her own, and then she got saddled with Jim and then she got pregnant and even though I am pretty sure it's wrong to hate babies, even fictional ones, I kind of, er, hate theirs, because I feel like Pam just got so screwed over. It's like she finally split with Roy and then got caught right in another trap. And, hahaha, this comment is making me sound more and more like the most heinous person on earth!

In short: thank you for writing this, it gave me a lot of hard sad feelings; I now just want to spend all my time pointing at it and going, 'Exactly! Exactly! This is why I am so upset at this little damned show!'

At night when she sits up nursing the baby, she can see the dim shape of the photo on the bedtable: her and Jim in New York, on a pier in lower Manhattan with red Dixie cups of beer and the sun setting behind them. It was her third week there, just after their first anniversary. Everything had felt so wild and new, so possible.

Aughhhhh.

[lz1982]

It's like she finally split with Roy and then got caught right in another trap.

That was exactly how I felt when Jim "surprised" her by buying his parents' house. I was like, "Wow, Pam, good thing you got out of that controlling relationship with Roy!"