Rambling...
What do you do when you know that someones life could be in danger but the reason is supposed to be a secret? do you tell them anyway? Do you keep your peace, protect your secret, treasure the trust that another has placed in you regardless of the cost?
I don't know about most people, but I lack the capacity for silence when I know that it could cost another their well-being. Whether that person is particularly deserving of the possible..probable..sacrifice is unimportant. The cost of saying nothing is far greater.
So why, when it all comes to a head, am I in the minority? Why do people react with schock and horror when they learn of the choice? Why are they angry that I chose to protect someone from certain harm?
Would they not do the same?
I profess to be a pessimist. To have no faith in humanity. Yet such behavior still manages to shock me. And someplace deep inside, it hurts.
That another person could be so callous, so uncaring, baffles me. How could you not see? How could you not understand? How could you live with yourself after making a different choice?
I know that it's the right thing...so why do I feel so guilty?
If I had to relive that moment I would have done the same thing. Would have still seen to it that the affected party learned of the danger that they were in.
But I still feel bad.
Perhaps because I am not the one paying the price. Because someone else is bearing the brunt of my...decision. not mistake..never mistake. This was deliberate and needful.
But I don't like to see other suffer because of my actions.
Why can't more people be reasonable? Or at the very least, distribute the blame more fairly.
I don't know about most people, but I lack the capacity for silence when I know that it could cost another their well-being. Whether that person is particularly deserving of the possible..probable..sacrifice is unimportant. The cost of saying nothing is far greater.
So why, when it all comes to a head, am I in the minority? Why do people react with schock and horror when they learn of the choice? Why are they angry that I chose to protect someone from certain harm?
Would they not do the same?
I profess to be a pessimist. To have no faith in humanity. Yet such behavior still manages to shock me. And someplace deep inside, it hurts.
That another person could be so callous, so uncaring, baffles me. How could you not see? How could you not understand? How could you live with yourself after making a different choice?
I know that it's the right thing...so why do I feel so guilty?
If I had to relive that moment I would have done the same thing. Would have still seen to it that the affected party learned of the danger that they were in.
But I still feel bad.
Perhaps because I am not the one paying the price. Because someone else is bearing the brunt of my...decision. not mistake..never mistake. This was deliberate and needful.
But I don't like to see other suffer because of my actions.
Why can't more people be reasonable? Or at the very least, distribute the blame more fairly.