I don't know why I find it necessary to use such discretion and care in updating in here. I can never let myself just write or rant. It needs to be neat, and "worthy", and whatever other expectations and standards I hold myself to with a lot more than simply updating LiveJournal. It's a characteristic that definitely holds its share of the good
(
Read more... )
in the indescribable emotions that are swelled up in me and the lack of sleep, i thought i should just thank you, thank you for our time together. to be honest, i'm completely jealous of all the people who will get to be with you all the time within the next few years, but knowing that will somehow make our friendship stronger. i know that you will meet so many amazing people that will blow your mind, and whoever the hell 'ilswyn' is, he/she provides a testimony to my hypothesis.
this summer has been the worst, most tiring, draining summer of my life in many aspects, and one that makes me realize what people mean exactly when they say they aged 10 years in a span of time. it has also been a defining moment in my life, something that has made me realize exactly what i want out of life. i'll come out of summer knowing what my aesthetic is, how to make it true, and that the only thing that can stop me is myself. i was going to throw in an analogy of some kind of strong yet mutable element, but that would require me to have paid attention in chemistry.
anyway, i know we will not be able to say 'goodbye' like they do in the movies. our exit from our adolescent years together will be a serious of get-togethers and awkward phone calls before if finally dawns on us that we are 2,000 miles away. it's not good or bad, but something that'll happen. the goodbyes don't really matter though, i think all the 4am im conversations can make up for that.
i'll see you soon (hopefully tomorrow) and we'll talk like it already has happened and yet never will. you have had such an deep affect on my life (and i hope that's something that you can find a semblance of pride in :) and i just appreciate who you are and who you will be.
i've already scoped out the area where your books will be in the library. no one really good in the jo's until you get to joyce. you'll dominate that shelve.
here's to the day where i can pick up a copy of your book looking forward to reading the great american epic and laughing at the goofy picture of you on the back cover. and maybe you'll see a movie of mine and see some of the inspiration that i've gotten from you and the time we've spent together.
like i said, never be content.
Reply
Leave a comment