you could just hum along
everything goes from super high to super low like one second im driving and the musics going and i cant help but hum along and nothing matters. absolutely nothing matters in the whole word except that moment. but the song ends i get off at an exit drive and park. here's wishing that moments would last a little longer.
started thinking about how my birthday was like that last year. it went from stressful but exciting day to bliss with nique when we got what we wanted and then i got home and it crashed and burned. maybe i'll tell you someday why but until then i have to keep it to myself. honestly the worst day of my entire life. no not like oh my gah it was the worst, girl dang! no honestly the worst feeling and moment ive ever experienced. i never thought i could hurt that much after a single realization and there wasnt anything i could do about it. the worst part was that as much as some could help no one understood. how could anyone understand that? and it wasnt even about me it was about how part of me couldnt cope. but then i did.
so thats why its strange to imagine that a whole year has almost passed since then. that after a year things have gotten better. are they normal again? haha what the hell is normal anyway? but you know what? its better. its just scary to think that in a second it could happen again. i still dont want to be eighteen on thursday but more importantly i dont want another birthday like last year.
soooo my birthday wish- trying to keep last year in the past and starting this next year of my life a little better, i guess. but no one can just... give me that.
started thinking about how my birthday was like that last year. it went from stressful but exciting day to bliss with nique when we got what we wanted and then i got home and it crashed and burned. maybe i'll tell you someday why but until then i have to keep it to myself. honestly the worst day of my entire life. no not like oh my gah it was the worst, girl dang! no honestly the worst feeling and moment ive ever experienced. i never thought i could hurt that much after a single realization and there wasnt anything i could do about it. the worst part was that as much as some could help no one understood. how could anyone understand that? and it wasnt even about me it was about how part of me couldnt cope. but then i did.
so thats why its strange to imagine that a whole year has almost passed since then. that after a year things have gotten better. are they normal again? haha what the hell is normal anyway? but you know what? its better. its just scary to think that in a second it could happen again. i still dont want to be eighteen on thursday but more importantly i dont want another birthday like last year.
soooo my birthday wish- trying to keep last year in the past and starting this next year of my life a little better, i guess. but no one can just... give me that.