Depression really sucks...
I haven't been very happy at all lately...my family is still screwed up..we're all completely broke now...i won't be getting the Pell grant next semester or any following semesters......i get upset way too easily and recently, i've been trying to prepare for the portfolio review for entrance into the graphic design program at my school -_-;
things have not been going well..and i find myself crying or wanting to cry more often than i would like.
i feel like i don't belong here..that i'm a failure because i've been an art major for 6 years and still have accomplished nothing at all..whereas my cousin, who is the same age as me, already has his bachelors in whatever his major is, and is going for his graduate degree ;_;
my life sucks so much right now and i don't know what to do anymore...
i've lost almost all of my drive for art in general, but i don't want to switch majors after i've wasted so much time, money, and effort into what i have...i truly feel like an idiot for thinking i can handle everything...it's all kinda crashing down onto me all at once and i don't know how to prioritize things in a way that would work for me.....
i need to get some sort of mental evaluation and quite possibly a therapist but in order to do that, i have to have money...which is something i don't have.
i honestly think i need a break...from everything and everyone...just to get away for a while.
things have not been going well..and i find myself crying or wanting to cry more often than i would like.
i feel like i don't belong here..that i'm a failure because i've been an art major for 6 years and still have accomplished nothing at all..whereas my cousin, who is the same age as me, already has his bachelors in whatever his major is, and is going for his graduate degree ;_;
my life sucks so much right now and i don't know what to do anymore...
i've lost almost all of my drive for art in general, but i don't want to switch majors after i've wasted so much time, money, and effort into what i have...i truly feel like an idiot for thinking i can handle everything...it's all kinda crashing down onto me all at once and i don't know how to prioritize things in a way that would work for me.....
i need to get some sort of mental evaluation and quite possibly a therapist but in order to do that, i have to have money...which is something i don't have.
i honestly think i need a break...from everything and everyone...just to get away for a while.