「いま進もう」
I promised a Shokura post "later," and I was just watching it right now. Which is kind of funny because I don't even really feel like paying attention to anything because I kind of want to sleep.
Finished part two.
I want to throw up.
Guess I wasn't as over Ya-Ya-yah as I believed I was.
My chest hurts.
I really am a visual person. I can deal with listening to Ya-Ya-yah songs, but...the performances...
I mean, even REAL DX depressed me because I remembered I was paying attention to, no I'm not kidding, Taiyou's arms when I first watched it. I actually had to tell myself "NO. BAD. DO NOT PAY ATTENTION TO THE YA3 BOYS. EVEN IF THEY'RE IN YOUR FAVORITE YA3 OUTFIT. ESPECIALLY NO PAYING ATTENTION TO TAIYOU OR HIKARU'S ARMS LIKE LAST TIME."
That song with NewS (like I said, I didn't want to pay attention, so I didn't even read it)...I was kind of retarded. "O hay! Sgt. Pepper outfits! ...wait a minute." The sad part was that I felt sad because Taiyou looked kind of sad. But Chibi-chibi!Yuto made me smile, at the very least.
Hikaru sounded like he was really trying not to cry when he had to read that postcard. At first, I was giggling because it was from freakin' りんごさん, but then, once he said "Ya-Ya-yah" and there were those cheers, my heart sank. When he started to laugh, I kind of wondered about that. But then once he had to do that thing he said in replacement of "douzo" [I couldn't hear it properly; my ears broke and I'm kind of not supposed to be up right now], I noticed it sounded choked, like he was really trying not to break down. Yabu looked bad, too.
When Ima Susumou played, I felt a pang. It was always one of my favorite performances. I was dreading the zoom-in on Taiyou, especially since before all the HSJ drama started, the zoom-in always made me squirm (in a good way, I guess XD). Te wo Tsunaide Yukou was always one of my favorite songs.
Geh, I feel so weak right now.
...hey, at least I don't want to throw up anymore.
There were a lot of funny things. I'm at least happy I can still giggle at those.
僕は進みたい。But like I just proved to myself, I can't, at least not right now.
why do my last two posts about Ya-Ya-yah have song titles as the subject...>_>
Oh, and Bre. Even though your card did contribute a little to my Ya-Ya-yah emoism, I don't want you to feel bad. :x Besides. One of the pictures you sent me was special. :D It was from the first JE magazine I touched at Kinokuniya the first time I went, back on my birthday. I didn't realize it until a few moments ago.
Also, in non-Ya3-related depression, I got mad at the Please x3 performance. ;-; RYU'S SOLO LINE. THEY DIDN'T SHOW IT. ;_____; THAT WAS MY FAVORITE LINE FROM THE ENTIRE SONG.
Oh. Merry Christmas for real now. It's midnight here.
Before I fall asleep in the middle of Shokura, I'm going to go to bed. Almost internet curfew time anyway.
Finished part two.
I want to throw up.
Guess I wasn't as over Ya-Ya-yah as I believed I was.
My chest hurts.
I really am a visual person. I can deal with listening to Ya-Ya-yah songs, but...the performances...
I mean, even REAL DX depressed me because I remembered I was paying attention to, no I'm not kidding, Taiyou's arms when I first watched it. I actually had to tell myself "NO. BAD. DO NOT PAY ATTENTION TO THE YA3 BOYS. EVEN IF THEY'RE IN YOUR FAVORITE YA3 OUTFIT. ESPECIALLY NO PAYING ATTENTION TO TAIYOU OR HIKARU'S ARMS LIKE LAST TIME."
That song with NewS (like I said, I didn't want to pay attention, so I didn't even read it)...I was kind of retarded. "O hay! Sgt. Pepper outfits! ...wait a minute." The sad part was that I felt sad because Taiyou looked kind of sad. But Chibi-chibi!Yuto made me smile, at the very least.
Hikaru sounded like he was really trying not to cry when he had to read that postcard. At first, I was giggling because it was from freakin' りんごさん, but then, once he said "Ya-Ya-yah" and there were those cheers, my heart sank. When he started to laugh, I kind of wondered about that. But then once he had to do that thing he said in replacement of "douzo" [I couldn't hear it properly; my ears broke and I'm kind of not supposed to be up right now], I noticed it sounded choked, like he was really trying not to break down. Yabu looked bad, too.
When Ima Susumou played, I felt a pang. It was always one of my favorite performances. I was dreading the zoom-in on Taiyou, especially since before all the HSJ drama started, the zoom-in always made me squirm (in a good way, I guess XD). Te wo Tsunaide Yukou was always one of my favorite songs.
Geh, I feel so weak right now.
...hey, at least I don't want to throw up anymore.
There were a lot of funny things. I'm at least happy I can still giggle at those.
僕は進みたい。But like I just proved to myself, I can't, at least not right now.
why do my last two posts about Ya-Ya-yah have song titles as the subject...>_>
Oh, and Bre. Even though your card did contribute a little to my Ya-Ya-yah emoism, I don't want you to feel bad. :x Besides. One of the pictures you sent me was special. :D It was from the first JE magazine I touched at Kinokuniya the first time I went, back on my birthday. I didn't realize it until a few moments ago.
Also, in non-Ya3-related depression, I got mad at the Please x3 performance. ;-; RYU'S SOLO LINE. THEY DIDN'T SHOW IT. ;_____; THAT WAS MY FAVORITE LINE FROM THE ENTIRE SONG.
Oh. Merry Christmas for real now. It's midnight here.
Before I fall asleep in the middle of Shokura, I'm going to go to bed. Almost internet curfew time anyway.