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Today i went to watch Phantom of the Opera with my family. It was real real good. It gave me the same jittery feelings like when i saw Guys and Dolls at N Hollywood. Then went to cuz's house and for the first time opened presents on Christmas eve. Opening Christmas presents did not give me the same joy as it used to do when i was a kid. This time things were in a way too planned. Finding gifts for people were more stressing than fun. I'm thinking maybe next year i should just bake a whole bunch of cookies. i'm pretty sure i'd probably enjoy it more. i have no idea as to what im doing tomorrow. but at the same time im trying to decide whether contacts would be better. i could present my arguments for each side but it feels too time consuming. this month has all together been so scheduled ...except for all the raging emotions in it. (not that i have any really myself, or i could just be in denial, i dont want to argue with myself now) well hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day.cause from the way i can see it things could really get so much better.
i feel so ashamed of myself right now. this whole time ive been complaining about materialistic stuff. christmas isnt even really about gifts, its about celebrating the birth of jesus. this whole hallmark shopping scam has made me forget the true meaning of christmas. but at least today's only christmas eve there's christmas tomorrow. so i still have time. thats a relief!
i feel so ashamed of myself right now. this whole time ive been complaining about materialistic stuff. christmas isnt even really about gifts, its about celebrating the birth of jesus. this whole hallmark shopping scam has made me forget the true meaning of christmas. but at least today's only christmas eve there's christmas tomorrow. so i still have time. thats a relief!