Tuhan, aku takut mati.....
I'm getting bored with LJ. dont know why...
bu ce tau, ye bu siang yao ce tau...
(don't know, and don't want to know)
my fav words recently. haha, i know, it shows how careless i am, eh? but surely, i get bored on everything recently... a week with tight,depressing schedule just makes me want to throw everything away, to pour everything that has been hanging in my head. don't mention that i'm a very irritable person.
anyway, i begin to think that i'm being left behind by everyone. Not that i want them to always by my side. haha, it's a very complicated feeling you know. i haven't met my friends yet, i know they're busy... and it makes the feeling sinks deeper. and something occured and i think i'm going to lost another friend. not that i mind.... ok, damn, i DO mind about it.
i am not a perfect person, you know... if you want me to always be perfect, you'd better go away eventhough i'd feel really sad and regret it after that.
aiyah... okay everyone just go away and don't come back.
nah, ada adiknya nyokap, gw panggil dia om. si om punya istri. si istri punya kakak, si kaka punya suami yg sudah almarhum. almarhum nya gara2 penyakit brengsek yg sedang anget2nya dibicarakan dari sejak ditemukan sampe sekarang.
HIV. dan sesuai predksi, si istri positif, biarpun gatau apakah perlu perawatan lebih lanjut apa kaga. takutnya anak2 nya pun kena... anaknya masih kecil2. umur 7, 5, sama 4 tahun. akan gimana masa depan mereka nanti?
tuhan... jujur gue takut. kemaren sempet juga gue tes darah. untuk ngecek apakah kena juga apa kaga karena gue da ngga inget lagi pernah kontak darah ama orang tersebut apa ngga. gue blom mau mati... gue mau sukses ampe umur 30taon abis itu gapapa deh mati juga. yg penting keidupan ortu dan sodara2 gue da terjamin hidupnya.
lo pikir buat apa gue tetep ada sekarang?
ah udahlah. ini itu terjadi dan memang hidup ini penuh dengan ini itu. jadi maklum deh...
bu ce tau, ye bu siang yao ce tau...
(don't know, and don't want to know)
my fav words recently. haha, i know, it shows how careless i am, eh? but surely, i get bored on everything recently... a week with tight,depressing schedule just makes me want to throw everything away, to pour everything that has been hanging in my head. don't mention that i'm a very irritable person.
anyway, i begin to think that i'm being left behind by everyone. Not that i want them to always by my side. haha, it's a very complicated feeling you know. i haven't met my friends yet, i know they're busy... and it makes the feeling sinks deeper. and something occured and i think i'm going to lost another friend. not that i mind.... ok, damn, i DO mind about it.
i am not a perfect person, you know... if you want me to always be perfect, you'd better go away eventhough i'd feel really sad and regret it after that.
aiyah... okay everyone just go away and don't come back.
nah, ada adiknya nyokap, gw panggil dia om. si om punya istri. si istri punya kakak, si kaka punya suami yg sudah almarhum. almarhum nya gara2 penyakit brengsek yg sedang anget2nya dibicarakan dari sejak ditemukan sampe sekarang.
HIV. dan sesuai predksi, si istri positif, biarpun gatau apakah perlu perawatan lebih lanjut apa kaga. takutnya anak2 nya pun kena... anaknya masih kecil2. umur 7, 5, sama 4 tahun. akan gimana masa depan mereka nanti?
tuhan... jujur gue takut. kemaren sempet juga gue tes darah. untuk ngecek apakah kena juga apa kaga karena gue da ngga inget lagi pernah kontak darah ama orang tersebut apa ngga. gue blom mau mati... gue mau sukses ampe umur 30taon abis itu gapapa deh mati juga. yg penting keidupan ortu dan sodara2 gue da terjamin hidupnya.
lo pikir buat apa gue tetep ada sekarang?
ah udahlah. ini itu terjadi dan memang hidup ini penuh dengan ini itu. jadi maklum deh...