i just want to be held by those gentle arms....
the worls is not fair. the bookstore is not fair. everything is not fair. everyone is not fair!! *cries*
ahh, forget me. you know, 2 weeks of holiday, went nowhere, no pocket money, nothing. except to be a good servant in my house. and photobucket is being bitchy. shit. i hate it when i feel bored. because when i do, i'd think too much, which leads to another session of depression, and ended up....
SMOKING.
fuck. shit. bitch. all those for stupid me and stupid A Mild menthol cigarettes! i hate myself for being so weak -_-;;;
and yes, this is what happened when i listen for aerosmith's song over and over again. anyone know the song? I Dont Want to Miss a Thing. and the heart-touching line (for me, of course XP)
fanart, minna-san. the one i made in boredom. ended up badly. but i kept on insisting to post this up.
oh the song XDDDD
ah, just have to fix my habit in smoking again...
this weeks i rarely gets haunted by nightmares ^-^ its the only thing good from holiday. but i dreamed something odd yesterday.
i attended acu_saree's b'day party!! XDDD there're some ppl from lj too, but i forgot their faces ^^;; and the most shocking thing that is, Tora was there too, and he's saree's lover! TT_TT *ga rela. betul betul ga relaaaa* he wore a bear costume (because, yes, Saree takut Tora saya rebut, makanya Tora dipaksanya untuk pake kostum beruang imut nan lucu itu XPPP) and drove a red bycycle (imagine it, i was near fainting.lol).
one thing that's so sad from the dream is, all of them wore the same clothes. the girls with a green gown with big flower prints, and the boys wore the chocolate colored shirt. only me wore the different clothes. and no one talked to me ^^;;; it was kinda sad. yes. the feeling of being an outsider, and have no one to talk with. but the dream's still very fun XD i mean, that was the first time i dreamed being together with the others, though i was still the different one.
i wish i have another way to keep on touch with my friends, though. i long for having my own internet at home, but still.... *sigh* it's a hard thing to do.
aaarrrghh!!!! please, someone, help me from all of this depresson thing!! *cries more* i hate being so depressed. i hate myself more when i do. i have to get out from being all alone with no one to talk with at home.
i miss kyo...
ahh, forget me. you know, 2 weeks of holiday, went nowhere, no pocket money, nothing. except to be a good servant in my house. and photobucket is being bitchy. shit. i hate it when i feel bored. because when i do, i'd think too much, which leads to another session of depression, and ended up....
SMOKING.
fuck. shit. bitch. all those for stupid me and stupid A Mild menthol cigarettes! i hate myself for being so weak -_-;;;
and yes, this is what happened when i listen for aerosmith's song over and over again. anyone know the song? I Dont Want to Miss a Thing. and the heart-touching line (for me, of course XP)
fanart, minna-san. the one i made in boredom. ended up badly. but i kept on insisting to post this up.
oh the song XDDDD
ah, just have to fix my habit in smoking again...
this weeks i rarely gets haunted by nightmares ^-^ its the only thing good from holiday. but i dreamed something odd yesterday.
i attended acu_saree's b'day party!! XDDD there're some ppl from lj too, but i forgot their faces ^^;; and the most shocking thing that is, Tora was there too, and he's saree's lover! TT_TT *ga rela. betul betul ga relaaaa* he wore a bear costume (because, yes, Saree takut Tora saya rebut, makanya Tora dipaksanya untuk pake kostum beruang imut nan lucu itu XPPP) and drove a red bycycle (imagine it, i was near fainting.lol).
one thing that's so sad from the dream is, all of them wore the same clothes. the girls with a green gown with big flower prints, and the boys wore the chocolate colored shirt. only me wore the different clothes. and no one talked to me ^^;;; it was kinda sad. yes. the feeling of being an outsider, and have no one to talk with. but the dream's still very fun XD i mean, that was the first time i dreamed being together with the others, though i was still the different one.
i wish i have another way to keep on touch with my friends, though. i long for having my own internet at home, but still.... *sigh* it's a hard thing to do.
aaarrrghh!!!! please, someone, help me from all of this depresson thing!! *cries more* i hate being so depressed. i hate myself more when i do. i have to get out from being all alone with no one to talk with at home.
i miss kyo...