I never post anything happy...
Still on the hunt for work, so far all I've heard back from as far as jobs go all seem like get rich quick scams...
I don't really know what I can do at this point, but I guess I just gotta keep at it though with the fukt up sleep schedule I am on, well I just can't seem to stay awake half the day.
The more I get rejected the more depressed I get and the more depressed I get the more my body rebels against me and let me tell you I am not feeling too good. My brains feel like mush, I feel as though my entire body aches constantly, and my immune system is slowly dying. I forgot how bad real depression is for you...
I wish I was happy and healthy again, all this stress is going to make me look like shit in the very near future if this keeps up, I just don't really know what to do at this point, and it's getting hard to find any happiness aside from Alex, he's really been helping me through all this but I know there is only so much he can do and because of that I worry even more.
I don't really know what I can do at this point, but I guess I just gotta keep at it though with the fukt up sleep schedule I am on, well I just can't seem to stay awake half the day.
The more I get rejected the more depressed I get and the more depressed I get the more my body rebels against me and let me tell you I am not feeling too good. My brains feel like mush, I feel as though my entire body aches constantly, and my immune system is slowly dying. I forgot how bad real depression is for you...
I wish I was happy and healthy again, all this stress is going to make me look like shit in the very near future if this keeps up, I just don't really know what to do at this point, and it's getting hard to find any happiness aside from Alex, he's really been helping me through all this but I know there is only so much he can do and because of that I worry even more.