Don't take this personally, but...
i fucking hate arthur sometimes.
i mean, i'll always love him, but man, why is he always such a douche to me? i don't get it....
the most hurtful thing in the world is trying to be loving to someone and they turn around and throw mud in your face, stomp on your heart, and make a fool of you.
dealing with him makes me feel like such a fool.
if i were my friend i would have told me to stop worrying about his ass long ago.
it's just so hard when love's involved.
first loves are rather tricky, aren't they? they're just too personal. maybe if i had loved someone else in the interim...
maybe that's the problem. he's the only man i've loved thus far.
why wasn't my love good enough?
that's what i always wonder.
that's what makes me cry.