OK..enough is enough
So I am usually the one that is griping to my freinds to update their journal when indeed I have failed to update for like a month. Are you ready, because here it comes.
First off I will continue to bitch about school. I am so sick of tests, quizzes, homework, slutty girls and over-demanding professors. I think that every teacher in the nursing dept. and biology dept. came together and said, "For the month of April, lets really test these guys and give 2 or 3 tests every week until the end of the month!!!" And I am pretty sure they said that with smiles and gfrins on their faces as they laughed evil-like. I am dead serious, I have 2 or 3 tests everyweek until the end of this fucking month. OH, and then after the month is over, here come finals!!! But, I am busting my ass still and pulling some good grades out of my ass. I will give you my grade update at the end of this bitch session. And everyday I ask myself, "Why do I want to be a RN so bad? Is it really worth all this stress?" But unfortunately I answer back everyday with a defiant YES!!! OHH the struggles of a gay nursing student.
OK enough bitching about school. On to my nonexistant love life. So, about a week ago, on gay.com of course, this really attractive guy IM's me. we chat for a while and end up knowing a lot of the same people. We kinda have brief convos for a few days, then I finally asked form his #. So, I wait a couple of days and call him....no answer or response back. We converse for like 3 minutes at 5:00am yesterday, yeah I know..early, I woke up in the middle of the night, but nothing magical sparked. SO I call him again today, no answer. And when I see him online, he suddenly signed out. What the fuck is my problem? Maybe I am too agressive. I just don't want to give up on him because he is attractive, appears to have a lot of the characteristics I am intereted in, and he seems like he is worth getting to know. I just want to say, "look, do you want to know more about me, becasue I am willing to know more about you." Well, this must be the end of the world, because I am 21, never been in a realtionship and still a virgin. But the virginity part deson't concern me as much the romance I am missing out on. I just want someone who is sweet, likes to snuggle, and I can talk to them. If that certain someone is reading this, this is no way a lash out per se. I am just questioning myself. I don't want to play little flirty games, I want a realtionship.
Well, I have pretty much covered everything in my life. School and a non-existant love life. Oh, BTW, I did turn 21 excatly 2 weeks ago and let me tell you about what happened on my birthday. Are you ready, cause it is a doozy!! Ready...I studied for microbiology. Yep, thats right, I studied. I am nerd. But that next friday...I had a blast with some of my closet freinds. Thanks for all that you had to put up with that night!!!
Test grade update:
4/11/05 Nursing fundamentals: A on test B in class
4/5/05 Microbiology leacture test: B on test B in class
4/4/05 Nursing Comm.: B on test B in class
And I have made A or B for quizzes
Fitness and Wellnes A or B not sure
Nursing Science Domain: B in class
Hopefully I will be oulling a 3.0 this semester!!!
Well, I have bitched enough for a week and I need to get to bed. TTYL!!!
First off I will continue to bitch about school. I am so sick of tests, quizzes, homework, slutty girls and over-demanding professors. I think that every teacher in the nursing dept. and biology dept. came together and said, "For the month of April, lets really test these guys and give 2 or 3 tests every week until the end of the month!!!" And I am pretty sure they said that with smiles and gfrins on their faces as they laughed evil-like. I am dead serious, I have 2 or 3 tests everyweek until the end of this fucking month. OH, and then after the month is over, here come finals!!! But, I am busting my ass still and pulling some good grades out of my ass. I will give you my grade update at the end of this bitch session. And everyday I ask myself, "Why do I want to be a RN so bad? Is it really worth all this stress?" But unfortunately I answer back everyday with a defiant YES!!! OHH the struggles of a gay nursing student.
OK enough bitching about school. On to my nonexistant love life. So, about a week ago, on gay.com of course, this really attractive guy IM's me. we chat for a while and end up knowing a lot of the same people. We kinda have brief convos for a few days, then I finally asked form his #. So, I wait a couple of days and call him....no answer or response back. We converse for like 3 minutes at 5:00am yesterday, yeah I know..early, I woke up in the middle of the night, but nothing magical sparked. SO I call him again today, no answer. And when I see him online, he suddenly signed out. What the fuck is my problem? Maybe I am too agressive. I just don't want to give up on him because he is attractive, appears to have a lot of the characteristics I am intereted in, and he seems like he is worth getting to know. I just want to say, "look, do you want to know more about me, becasue I am willing to know more about you." Well, this must be the end of the world, because I am 21, never been in a realtionship and still a virgin. But the virginity part deson't concern me as much the romance I am missing out on. I just want someone who is sweet, likes to snuggle, and I can talk to them. If that certain someone is reading this, this is no way a lash out per se. I am just questioning myself. I don't want to play little flirty games, I want a realtionship.
Well, I have pretty much covered everything in my life. School and a non-existant love life. Oh, BTW, I did turn 21 excatly 2 weeks ago and let me tell you about what happened on my birthday. Are you ready, cause it is a doozy!! Ready...I studied for microbiology. Yep, thats right, I studied. I am nerd. But that next friday...I had a blast with some of my closet freinds. Thanks for all that you had to put up with that night!!!
Test grade update:
4/11/05 Nursing fundamentals: A on test B in class
4/5/05 Microbiology leacture test: B on test B in class
4/4/05 Nursing Comm.: B on test B in class
And I have made A or B for quizzes
Fitness and Wellnes A or B not sure
Nursing Science Domain: B in class
Hopefully I will be oulling a 3.0 this semester!!!
Well, I have bitched enough for a week and I need to get to bed. TTYL!!!