damn the man

Feb 15, 2005 21:20

Electric, water, and phone all shut off with the help of the man.....

Well not yet, but their on their way... Why is it soo hard to get a decent job in Flint? anyone know anyone who is hiring? I'm a little desperate here, it won't be long before they take the roof from over my babies head too....

I never thought I was such a failure, such a loser...

I'm sure a lot of people would love to hear that I'm in such a bad situation... Here they go, fuel for the fire. It's so hard not to be depressed when you reside in flint..The armpit of the United States of Goddamn America.. I'm running out of options, and optimism, and because of this my offspring may suffer....

What do you do? How do you start over? I need a plan... I get more and more depressed by the minute... If it wasn't for that happy baby smiling at me all day long, I don't know how I would survive. She says mamma now... in fact, she calls everything mamma... cries for me in the middle of the night, even says mamma in her sleep. She has just learned to get on her knees and rock back and forth... it's the cutest damn thing i think I've ever seen... I love her soo much... For those interested, you can see recent, and older pictures of my beautiful baby girl at www.thefunschybunsch.com... Yes she has her own website... one of the luxuries my friends Ryan and hellen have allowed me to afford...

So I'm looking for advice... how to stay sane... and of course a better job, one that can give me more that 20 hours a week... and if anyone works construction up in dis piece... Zach needs a job too, cause his hours got cut, and I can't depend on him to support our baby anymore... He wants to, he's just not making any money, and he gives me all he has....

Jesus Christ, how did I end up here? well.. I sort of know, but how could I have not seen it coming? I must be the dumbest living thing on the face of the planet... Sort of makes you proud to know me right?... oh well... at least I have a happy baby girl...

Peace
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