Lay All Your Love On Me - Part 5
Lay All Your Love On Me - Part 5
By Kymley
About: Kevin and Scotty
Rate: PG
Disclaimer: Not mine. Just messing with the characters if B&S and the songs by Abba (actually it going to be a mixture of different songs - not enough Abba) - so this chapter is actually Pretend Its Ok by Little Mix - I know it’s a surprise for me but the music/lyric is great and I can’t help but love them from since their first song. So song/lyrics owned by Little Mix - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TJmcU991p-w
Summary: Set along the B&S SL but not in any of the scene. It’s a musical... because I feel like writing something more fun for once
“Now you know how hard it is to love someone who doesn’t love themselves” Scotty says honestly as he walks pass Kevin and he turns towards him; he can see that Kevin wants to say something but the words escapes him, there is a first time for everything, so he says the only thing worth saying at that point “Good luck, Kevin” and turns to walk away leaving Kevin in his underwear, in the middle on his bedroom.
“Scotty, wait” Kevin calls after him, he is nearly to the front door, he can see the back of him but Kevin is still a lost to the words that he should use, part of him might have wanted to make Chad jealous yesterday but he can’t help but feel that it was because it was Scotty it actually happened. If only he could explain this to Scotty.
Instead Scotty didn’t turn around; he didn’t want to listen to Kevin anymore. It was always the same excuses, the same reasoning and apologises and Scotty felt a fool for believing them; last night was the last straw, he wasn’t angry, he was just disappointed.
(Scotty)
What would you do? What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
Kevin walked slowly over to Scotty, cautiously, he could see the tension in his back, all he really wanted to do was to take away all the pain he had caused to this beautiful, smart, charismatic man.
Kevin had reached Scotty and pulled him into a hug from behind; gently singing to him about the promise the relationship could or should have been. So must potential disappeared.
(Kevin)
I remember the day when, we were out all night
I wish that I can get the day back and tell you it's alright
Cause we all do the same thing, we just don't realize
That we're living on borrowed time
Kevin turned Scotty around on the last line “It never matter how much we want us to work, it just wasn’t meant to be Scotty. We kept pushing for it but the timing wasn’t right, not here not now” Kevin looked up towards Scotty with regret in his face.
Scotty looked down at Kevin and saw the regret mistaken for sympathy in his face and pulled away from his arms harshly, thoroughly repeating his earlier words in anger.
(Scotty)
What would you do? What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
Now that Scotty was facing Kevin, Kevin could see all the pain and anger ached in his face and his body, as he shoved his arms at Kevin with every question left unanswered. “I looked at you last night, the same handsome man, the lawyer I met but you are still the same guy I left months ago”.
(Scotty)
I see the light that I'm chasing
A memory, but it's fading
When it's gone I'll be waiting
Knowing it's too late
“This is the problem between us, I’ll be waiting for you Kevin” Scotty said sadly, giving up on his anger “and I really didn’t want this to be the memories we have of each other, the using, the disrespecting of my feeling” Scotty remembered back to check, the money issues they always had between them and he could see the flash of the same thoughts occurring in Kevin’s eyes.
“We had good times as well” Kevin said with a small smile, hoping Scotty would remember them as well, the films, eating ice cream from the tube and the red cupcakes. Scotty could remember some of them but they were starting to get to fade and becoming further and farther in between.
(Scotty)
You chose the road that I'm walking
Now it's your soul that I'm caught in
And you're not hearing when I'm calling
Calling your name
Kevin looked at Scotty in shocked silence for a moment before he spoke “You were the one that broke up with me, Scotty, I didn’t lead you to this point, you did, and it was your choice” Kevin said, his pride took over him and his anger showing.
“You gave me no offer choice” Scotty said “you might have been out of the closet but you were never comfortable in your own skin and in turn, in our relationship” Scotty could see the stern Kevin appear in front of him “You could never quite let live just happen, even just for a day or a moment”.
(Scotty)
One breath, one step, one life, one heart
Two words, two eyes, new beginning, new start
Too neat, too narrow, too short, too bright,
I'm there with you, here by my side
Scotty had walked directly up towards Kevin, using all of his sexuality to intimidate Kevin, make him uncomfortable, to prove that the type of relationship that Scotty wanted and Kevin needed, Kevin also found out of reach. It was just a little bit too free for Kevin and he wasn’t able to do, or he could but he was worried what other people might think?
Kevin, now so close to Scotty, whispered into Scotty ear, a mirror of Scotty’s earlier word, his heart ached as he said each word.
(Kevin)
What would you do? What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
This time Scotty looked onto Kevin, they were too different; was it right for them to try to be together now, when they were still too different and just pretend. It seemed that they both loved each other but sometimes it just wasn’t enough, maybe it would be better to let each other go. If they cared about each other they really should; they stood there, in silence, for want could have infinite to them, until they knew that they had to walk away from each other, it was the only way.
(Kevin and Scotty)
Nothing here, no one talking, knowing it's too late
But sometimes it can get so hard pretending it's OK
Nothing here, no one talking, nothing's gonna change
But sometimes it can get so hard pretending it's OK
The words were spoken softly in union and when they finished they turned away from each other and headed in different direction in complete silence. Kevin headed to his bedroom and Scotty went to the front door; opened it quietly and closed it the same way.
(Kevin)
What would you do?
What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
Kevin’s voice penetrated his bedroom, he knew that they had done the right thing, by moving on, Scotty was gone but he couldn’t help feeling that Scotty was still with him and a part of him might always be with him in his heart. It was okay, he could pretend it wasn’t.
(Scotty)
What would you do?
What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
Scotty had turned and left the loft he was leaving for the last time; his voice couldn’t help but repeat those well know words now. The memories he had at the loft; even from outside the loft were strong once he was back here, he knew that they had to done the right thing; going their separate ways but Kevin would always hold a place in his heart. That is why he came back last night, against his better judgement; he knew something was going on with Kevin and Chad.
Scotty shakes his head and tries to get the thoughts out of his head, as he turns and walks away, it’s ok, he can pretend.
End of Part 5
By Kymley
About: Kevin and Scotty
Rate: PG
Disclaimer: Not mine. Just messing with the characters if B&S and the songs by Abba (actually it going to be a mixture of different songs - not enough Abba) - so this chapter is actually Pretend Its Ok by Little Mix - I know it’s a surprise for me but the music/lyric is great and I can’t help but love them from since their first song. So song/lyrics owned by Little Mix - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TJmcU991p-w
Summary: Set along the B&S SL but not in any of the scene. It’s a musical... because I feel like writing something more fun for once
“Now you know how hard it is to love someone who doesn’t love themselves” Scotty says honestly as he walks pass Kevin and he turns towards him; he can see that Kevin wants to say something but the words escapes him, there is a first time for everything, so he says the only thing worth saying at that point “Good luck, Kevin” and turns to walk away leaving Kevin in his underwear, in the middle on his bedroom.
“Scotty, wait” Kevin calls after him, he is nearly to the front door, he can see the back of him but Kevin is still a lost to the words that he should use, part of him might have wanted to make Chad jealous yesterday but he can’t help but feel that it was because it was Scotty it actually happened. If only he could explain this to Scotty.
Instead Scotty didn’t turn around; he didn’t want to listen to Kevin anymore. It was always the same excuses, the same reasoning and apologises and Scotty felt a fool for believing them; last night was the last straw, he wasn’t angry, he was just disappointed.
(Scotty)
What would you do? What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
Kevin walked slowly over to Scotty, cautiously, he could see the tension in his back, all he really wanted to do was to take away all the pain he had caused to this beautiful, smart, charismatic man.
Kevin had reached Scotty and pulled him into a hug from behind; gently singing to him about the promise the relationship could or should have been. So must potential disappeared.
(Kevin)
I remember the day when, we were out all night
I wish that I can get the day back and tell you it's alright
Cause we all do the same thing, we just don't realize
That we're living on borrowed time
Kevin turned Scotty around on the last line “It never matter how much we want us to work, it just wasn’t meant to be Scotty. We kept pushing for it but the timing wasn’t right, not here not now” Kevin looked up towards Scotty with regret in his face.
Scotty looked down at Kevin and saw the regret mistaken for sympathy in his face and pulled away from his arms harshly, thoroughly repeating his earlier words in anger.
(Scotty)
What would you do? What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
Now that Scotty was facing Kevin, Kevin could see all the pain and anger ached in his face and his body, as he shoved his arms at Kevin with every question left unanswered. “I looked at you last night, the same handsome man, the lawyer I met but you are still the same guy I left months ago”.
(Scotty)
I see the light that I'm chasing
A memory, but it's fading
When it's gone I'll be waiting
Knowing it's too late
“This is the problem between us, I’ll be waiting for you Kevin” Scotty said sadly, giving up on his anger “and I really didn’t want this to be the memories we have of each other, the using, the disrespecting of my feeling” Scotty remembered back to check, the money issues they always had between them and he could see the flash of the same thoughts occurring in Kevin’s eyes.
“We had good times as well” Kevin said with a small smile, hoping Scotty would remember them as well, the films, eating ice cream from the tube and the red cupcakes. Scotty could remember some of them but they were starting to get to fade and becoming further and farther in between.
(Scotty)
You chose the road that I'm walking
Now it's your soul that I'm caught in
And you're not hearing when I'm calling
Calling your name
Kevin looked at Scotty in shocked silence for a moment before he spoke “You were the one that broke up with me, Scotty, I didn’t lead you to this point, you did, and it was your choice” Kevin said, his pride took over him and his anger showing.
“You gave me no offer choice” Scotty said “you might have been out of the closet but you were never comfortable in your own skin and in turn, in our relationship” Scotty could see the stern Kevin appear in front of him “You could never quite let live just happen, even just for a day or a moment”.
(Scotty)
One breath, one step, one life, one heart
Two words, two eyes, new beginning, new start
Too neat, too narrow, too short, too bright,
I'm there with you, here by my side
Scotty had walked directly up towards Kevin, using all of his sexuality to intimidate Kevin, make him uncomfortable, to prove that the type of relationship that Scotty wanted and Kevin needed, Kevin also found out of reach. It was just a little bit too free for Kevin and he wasn’t able to do, or he could but he was worried what other people might think?
Kevin, now so close to Scotty, whispered into Scotty ear, a mirror of Scotty’s earlier word, his heart ached as he said each word.
(Kevin)
What would you do? What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
This time Scotty looked onto Kevin, they were too different; was it right for them to try to be together now, when they were still too different and just pretend. It seemed that they both loved each other but sometimes it just wasn’t enough, maybe it would be better to let each other go. If they cared about each other they really should; they stood there, in silence, for want could have infinite to them, until they knew that they had to walk away from each other, it was the only way.
(Kevin and Scotty)
Nothing here, no one talking, knowing it's too late
But sometimes it can get so hard pretending it's OK
Nothing here, no one talking, nothing's gonna change
But sometimes it can get so hard pretending it's OK
The words were spoken softly in union and when they finished they turned away from each other and headed in different direction in complete silence. Kevin headed to his bedroom and Scotty went to the front door; opened it quietly and closed it the same way.
(Kevin)
What would you do?
What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
Kevin’s voice penetrated his bedroom, he knew that they had done the right thing, by moving on, Scotty was gone but he couldn’t help feeling that Scotty was still with him and a part of him might always be with him in his heart. It was okay, he could pretend it wasn’t.
(Scotty)
What would you do?
What would you say?
How does it feel? Pretend it's OK
My eyes deceive me, but it's still the same
Pretend it's OK
Scotty had turned and left the loft he was leaving for the last time; his voice couldn’t help but repeat those well know words now. The memories he had at the loft; even from outside the loft were strong once he was back here, he knew that they had to done the right thing; going their separate ways but Kevin would always hold a place in his heart. That is why he came back last night, against his better judgement; he knew something was going on with Kevin and Chad.
Scotty shakes his head and tries to get the thoughts out of his head, as he turns and walks away, it’s ok, he can pretend.
End of Part 5