It Was Always You - Part 6/11
By Kymley
About: Was supposed to be just Kevin and Scotty but turned out to be the whole of walker family.
Rate: PG
Disclaimer: Not mine. Just messing with the characters of B&S
Summary: What if Kevin was the one to get Amnesia
Kevin just stares at Scotty thinking what he could say to make it okay; he doesn’t think there is anything that will make him okay.
He sits up properly on the bed and faces Scotty with his legs dangled of the bed; how can he say what he needs to say to make everything better. He knows he’s in love with Jason but part of he was happy to see Scotty walk back in his life. Now he knows that he has Scotty in his life how can he keep him there or is he sure that he what to be there.
He grabs hold of Scotty’ hands and calmly says “Scotty, I’m sorry, sorry that you’re going through all this” Kevin says holding tightly on to Scotty. Scotty nods his acknowledgement; looking at the floor.
“Scotty, look at me please” Kevin begs, Scotty just shake his head.
Scotty can’t look him in the eyes and not see the man he wants to spend the rest of his life with and hear that he doesn’t want Scotty anymore. To look him in the eyes and not see love; while Kevin tells him to leave the room and his life. He is about to lose his family and the Walkers in this next conversation.
“Scotty, please” Kevin says pleading.
Scotty looks up slowly but still can’t look Kevin in the eyes but his resolve breaks when Kevin squeezes his hands again and one last “Please” he looks directly into the eyes of the man that is going to break his heart.
“Thank you” Kevin says knowing it must have been difficult for Scotty. “I don’t know how to say what I need to say; not without you leaving me again” Kevin says worried that Scotty doesn’t want to hear what he has to say and will leave like he did so many times before.
Scotty looks at Kevin and knows he’s thinking about the times when Scotty walked out on their relationship. “Kevin, I’m not going to leave like I used too; things have changed. We’re married” Scotty says strongly but feeling weak inside.
“Scotty, I’m not going to lie to you, I am in love with Jason” Kevin says slowly and he can feel Scotty tremble but he keeps going “but there was part of me that was so happy when I saw you come in room earlier; I felt guilty because I knew I was with Jason and I loved him. I need you to hear me on this though, I felt something when you came in and told me you were already married; sad and guilt. I felt sad because I knew I’d never have you again and guilt because I was in a relationship with Jason. There is something about you that makes me stop and need to breath but I don’t know how to handle the feelings that I’m having at the moment”. Kevin says honestly; knowing that some of it will hurt Scotty but hoping that he’ll understand that part of him wants him as well. He realizes there is so much he doesn’t know.
“Okay” Scotty says hesitantly, not getting his hopes up, he might not be disgusted by Scotty but he already knew that much. They wouldn’t have kept on meeting up and breaking up if Kevin didn’t like him, right?
Kevin is not promised by that response so he continues “Scotty, you said earlier that you were there when me and Jason were together” Scotty nods in agreement “there is so much I don’t still understand that’s why I asked about how we meet again. I’m just trying to comprehend the situation. There is so much stuff that is out of place at the moment” Kevin says shaking his head hoping it will all fall back in place.
“Including me, right?” Scotty says knowing the answer is yes.
Kevin decides honesty is the best policy, right, “Scotty, yes it’s confusing for me to have you here; it appreciate the fact you’re here. Knowing what I already know about you it doesn’t surprise me. I’m not going to lie to you; I thought it was Jason sleeping in the chair over there; I’m presuming it was you, right?” Kevin waits until Scotty nods. “It’s just everything is confusing not just you being here but how I ended up here. I mean I know there was some sought of accident but all I know is I bumped my head and some years decided to fall out” Kevin says trying to lighten the conversation.
They look at each other and start laughing; glad for the interruption from the seriousness of the discussion. Once they’ve stopped giggling Kevin tries again.
“Scotty, can you please try to understand this from my point of view I just woke up like it was yesterday and the last three years didn’t happen. I feel like I’m playing catch-up and everyone is running so far in front of me or that everyone is playing a nasty trick on me” Kevin says with tears threatening to come out.
Scotty nods trying to understand “Can you do something for me then, please” Scotty says determined to make Kevin realize something, Kevin nods as well. “Can you try seeing the situation from my point of view? You may of forgotten the last three years but they might as well of disappeared from me as well without you the last three years have gone plus the next few and our lives together and the plans we made.” Scotty says starting to cry himself “You might think this is a nasty trick to play on you but it feeling a thousand times worse for me”. Kevin looks at Scotty and realizes his been selfish and puts himself in Scotty’s place and feel just as bad.
They both look at each other thinking they were laughing at the situation a few minutes earlier now they hold on to each other and cry for the lose they both feel. They stay there for what seems like a live time.
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Outside the Hospital
Sarah, Kitty and Saul watches as Scotty walks resolvedly into the hospital; glad they were able to help Scotty face Kevin.
“I hope it goes well” Sarah says nervously, she has no idea what it would feel like if she was lying on the bed expecting Joe and got Luc instead. Good she is so happy that she is not in Kevin’s position she hasn’t been this family in a relationship for a while. Then she puts herself in Scotty’s position; having to explain to Luc that they were in love. God no, she shouldn’t be thinking about that; there is plenty to think about beside the, what ifs.
“It will” Saul says hopefully. I can’t imagine to people more in love than Kevin and Scotty; they are perfect together Saul thinks about how he hopes he can get that one day.
“Well, we will all be there for them, whatever happens” Kitty says knowing it to be the truth. The family might have disagreements but at least they are all there for each other when it matter.
“Look, I should probable get back to Robert, shall will” Kitty says nodding towards the hospital.
The three walk into the hospital but before they separate ways they decide to find Nora first; get caught up on the Kevin situation.
“Hey mum” Sarah says spotting her across the room talking to a couple of doctors, she walks over to her mother “Do we have any news on Kevin?” all three curious of what might be happening.
“I just leaved Scotty with Kevin; he’s going to explain about the two of them but the doctors don’t want his knowing too much. I think it might shock his system” Nora says explaining and waving her hands pointing to the doctors.
“You all know Michael, right?” Nora asks, the other three nod their heads recognising the doctor from around the hospital. “Well this is Dr Karl Thompson, he is a specialist in the field of memory loss and a psychologist” Nora says and introduces her family to the doctor.
“We’ve been just discussing Kevin’s case; trying to determine the extent of his memory loss. Your mother explained to me that he thinks it is roughly three years ago” they all nod “Well it might just be arbitrary number or there could be some foundation why his mind has gone back to this time. The other thing of concern is whether it is permanent or temporary. Now the latter question I’m afraid only time will tell, the former however might be able to answer now, with your assistance.”
The family all start speaking at the same time with the general interpretation of the question being “How”.
“Well if I know a little about where you think he was emotionally, three years ago and where he is now” Karl says.
Everyone starts speaking at the same times; this time the doctor has difficultly understand what they are saying with contradictions with what everyone saying; and then the family starts to argue about who is right and wrong.
“Um, hey guys, can you lower your voices, please?” the doctors question goes by without them even noticing. “Hey WALKERS” the doctor shouts; that seems to of got their attention, “One at a time please or I’ll go and ask Kevin myself. Actually you know what that might be better; you seem to have different opinions on the matter” he feels like he is scolding children instead of having a mature conversation with adults.
“Oh we’re sorry. We’re normally so have much better behaviour” Nora says to the doctors with Sarah, Kitty and Saul snorting in disbelief “Let’s try it again. He was happy when he was dating Jason up to the point when he had to leave for Malaysia” Nora says thinking back.
The three nod their heads in agreement remembering how shocked they were he they had found out that Jason had called Kevin in months.
“He keeps his emotions guarded; only secrets he can keep used to be his own. He’s changed since he and Scotty got back together; more open about himself” Saul says thinking of how close he is with Kevin and Scotty. Scotty really did change him, probable not meaning to but it was all for the greater; Scotty really was his family now too.
“He and Jason were happy when they were together. Mum told me he asked for Jason and said was Jason still planning on leaving for Malaysia which means he still might be in the bubble of happiness with Jason” Kitty says thinking that they were happy.
“Well” Sarah says sharply looking at Kitty “he is happier with Scotty than he was with Jason or Chad or anyone else. He much happier” knowing it is the truth Kitty decides not to say anything.
“Well for now, I’m going to say it’s some other reason why he went back to that time; sometimes it can be the smallest reason or no reason at all” Karl says knowing that it could of happened for a million and one different reasons. Karl looks at Saul and says “You mentioned that Scotty and Kevin got back together after Jason; so I’m presuming he doesn’t know they are married but that he recognises Scotty” they all nod their heads.
“Okay, then I think it’s time we go and see me patient” Karl says letting the family and Michael led the way.
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Meanwhile elsewhere in the Hospital
“Becca; wait up” Justin call after running after his wife.
“Justin, I still don’t want to talk. Don’t you comprehend that; we were having problems before this and we’ve only been married a couple month” Rebecca says trying to get Justin to realize that maybe it was a mistake to get married at all.
“Rebecca, I know. I’m just trying to be there for you. Do you really not want me around?” Justin says then shocked by the answer “Yes, Justin, I don’t want you anywhere near me, my mum is dead and I just can’t be with you” Rebecca says walking away.
Justin grabs hold of Rebecca’s sleeve looks at her and says “Do you mean now or at all?” Justin suddenly scared.
“At all” Rebecca says calmly, sad and truthfully. She pulls her arm away from Justin and walks away without looking back.
Justin looks at Rebecca leave him and his life shatters but part of him thinks maybe she’s right. He continues to stand there until his phone rings; he looks down at the ID and goes to answer it.
“Hey, Tommy”
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In Seattle
Tommy stands outside Julia’ house; like he has been doing since he got the call from his mum about Kevin and the amnesia, trying to work the courage to knock on the door. It should be that difficult really he goes and picks up Elizabeth every other weekend and see her times in the week in the afternoon.
He just been thinking how different everything was three years ago; him and Julia may have had their problems but they were still together and working things out. He still cared a lot about Julia; she was the first person he called to tell about the accident and she was so sympathise about the situation. The amnesia is another thing altogether; he knows she cares about Kevin but it would bring all the same memories back to her as well. Or maybe it wouldn’t and that would hurt just as much.
He is still standing there when Julia comes out and says “Tommy, you’ve been standing out here for ages; are you coming in or do I have to call the police?” slightly joking but worried about his behaviour.
Tommy walks toward the house and it’s at that point that Julia sees his face and grows concerned “Tommy, what is wrong?”
Tommy goes up to her and starts to cry and he hugs her; she allows it, knowing that it’s not something romantic but that he needs comfort. Once he’s stopped crying he feels guilty about going to Julia with his problems “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t of came here” he says shocked at his behaviour. He turns to leave when he hears Julia’ voice.
“Tommy, what has happened?” she asks “They are my family as well” knowing that maybe it’s not as true as it was last year but that she has a right to know.
“It’s Kevin” Tommy says shaking.
“Oh my god, no” Julia says jumping to the wrong conclusion; she always loved Kevin for giving her the child she had now.
“No, no, no” Tommy keeps repeating until his brain catches up with what he has to say “Kevin’s awake actually” Tommy says with a small smile.
“So, what is the problem?” Julia says trying to figure out what could possibly have occurred to make Tommy react this way.
“He’s suffering from amnesia” Tommy says gently.
“What!” Julia says in complete shock, how could this of happened?
“He thinks it is 2007” Tommy says
“Oh my god” Julia says still in shock; then she thinks back to that year. It was a difficult year for her, and Tommy and her. That explains the reaction that Tommy just had; she goes against what she normally does when Tommy is by and says “Do you want to come in; have a couple of coffee or maybe something stronger” Julia says knowing how the Walkers drink.
All Tommy does is nod his head as they walk up to the house.
Once in the house they discuss the situation and come to the conclusion that they are both concerned about Kevin and decide to go hospital plus they can see Robert. Knowing that they’ll not feel better until they have seen him; they decide to take Elizabeth with them, thinking it will be the best for all of them to be together.
Tommy decides to ring the family to tell them they’re on their way. He rings Justin.
“Hey bro. How are you? No I didn’t hear about Holly. Oh god how is Rebecca taking it? What do you mean? She said what? No I didn’t ring for that reason. I just wanted to tell someone that me, Julia and Elizabeth are going to be on our way soon. Yeah we’re coming, we want to see everyone. No we were just going to get a cab; you don’t have to do that Justin. Okay, I’ll let you own our flight number when we know. Will do, you too” Tommy hangs up the phone.
Julia has been trying to piece together the other end of the conversation but not sure she has it all; she looks at Tommy waiting.
“Justin sends his love. He’s going to picking us up at the airport” Tommy says.
Julia just looks at him waiting for the rest of the information not letting him off the hook.
“Holly died” Tommy says slowly not sure how to respond to the news.
“Oh” Julia says not knowing what to say know; maybe she shouldn’t have pushed the subject.
“It seems to have put some troubles in his and Rebecca’s relationship apparently” not quite understanding how it could.
“Anyway we have to get packed, need to get Elizabeth up, is she asleep” Julia nods “Okay, I’ll go wake her up if that’s okay, tell her we’re going on a trip, then I’ll book the tickets and go get some clothes from mine. I’ll be back in about an hour” Tommy says and Julia just nods.
Tommy walks up the stairs and Julia thinks what have I got myself into? Then she follows Tommy upstairs to pack her daughter and her stuff to go on their “trip” as Tommy described.
End of Part 6
It Was Always You - Part 7