Work Thoughts
The plan for this morning was to take Mom to work and then go to work myself. The big problem with that plan was that my wallet was at home. As a result, I am at home eating my breakfast and reflecting on the last week. I was once again overwhelmed and at the end of my rope. The fact that this has become a recurrent experience only adds to the stress of it.
I really hate that the teacher next door is interfering in the affairs of my classroom. On Thursday, my fifth period were out of control so I let them have it. I mentioned it to her on Friday morning. I was venting to a colleague so that I would be ready to face a new day with the same kids. She went and spoke to the kids. In fifth period I got a card from them saying they were sorry. This really brighten my day and we had a great class. I was so excited that I showed to a couple of other teachers thinking that what I said had really gotten through to them. Then she tells me she knew about it and talked to the kids. My heart broke a little and now the card doesn't seem to sparkle the way it did.
It isn't the first time she has interfered in my class or in what is going on in other classrooms. I feel that she is acting more like an administrator than a teacher and she isn't giving me or the other teachers the respect. All of this is very frustrating to me on top of everything else. It feels like I have been trapped in an avalanche and every time I dig myself out just getting to the surface again, it collapses again.
This whole year I feel like I haven't been living up to my potential and not accomplishing what I have set out to do. I know I can do my job and I know that I can excel at it. Right now, I am not doing that and my students are suffering. There is a way for me to do better on a consistent better. I need to find it and find it quickly before I go insane.
Or more insane depending on who talk with.
I really hate that the teacher next door is interfering in the affairs of my classroom. On Thursday, my fifth period were out of control so I let them have it. I mentioned it to her on Friday morning. I was venting to a colleague so that I would be ready to face a new day with the same kids. She went and spoke to the kids. In fifth period I got a card from them saying they were sorry. This really brighten my day and we had a great class. I was so excited that I showed to a couple of other teachers thinking that what I said had really gotten through to them. Then she tells me she knew about it and talked to the kids. My heart broke a little and now the card doesn't seem to sparkle the way it did.
It isn't the first time she has interfered in my class or in what is going on in other classrooms. I feel that she is acting more like an administrator than a teacher and she isn't giving me or the other teachers the respect. All of this is very frustrating to me on top of everything else. It feels like I have been trapped in an avalanche and every time I dig myself out just getting to the surface again, it collapses again.
This whole year I feel like I haven't been living up to my potential and not accomplishing what I have set out to do. I know I can do my job and I know that I can excel at it. Right now, I am not doing that and my students are suffering. There is a way for me to do better on a consistent better. I need to find it and find it quickly before I go insane.
Or more insane depending on who talk with.