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the secene in the beginning, with them in the restaurant..when ryan cowen and Zach are sitting in the booth...and then summer and lindsey come..and cowen leaves...and looks back at them as he's leaving and they are sitting together with their little "couples"...i feel JUST like that...not all the time...but alot
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daddy's really sick..he went to the hospital
i was scared
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((got my report card.... GPA: 3.5 ...i know its really good...but its never good enough. ..))
i wish alot of things would end. or start over new...i dont really know what i want. i just want....no...i need a change. everything is way too predictable now. i know what my day will be like right when i wake up. ill go to school...it ill be ok. ill see everyone around me living the lives that i know nothing about...and ill continue to live mine the best way i know how. each minute..each day..
im not sad..or depressed or anything like that...its sort of coming out that i am ...im just bored i guess. i need something different in my life. i have nothing that i can be excited about. ..nothing for me. i feel like im on the outside of a big glass box...just watching everyone inside moving round..and trying to be the people they think they should be. im here when they need me...but im not a part of what they call thier lives...im just on the outside looking in. everyday..
and its getting old.
i need a change
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daddy's really sick..he went to the hospital
i was scared
..........................................................
((got my report card.... GPA: 3.5 ...i know its really good...but its never good enough. ..))
i wish alot of things would end. or start over new...i dont really know what i want. i just want....no...i need a change. everything is way too predictable now. i know what my day will be like right when i wake up. ill go to school...it ill be ok. ill see everyone around me living the lives that i know nothing about...and ill continue to live mine the best way i know how. each minute..each day..
im not sad..or depressed or anything like that...its sort of coming out that i am ...im just bored i guess. i need something different in my life. i have nothing that i can be excited about. ..nothing for me. i feel like im on the outside of a big glass box...just watching everyone inside moving round..and trying to be the people they think they should be. im here when they need me...but im not a part of what they call thier lives...im just on the outside looking in. everyday..
and its getting old.
i need a change