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Work...
Last night was hell...
The power kept going out...
one of my jobs is to make sure the Tvs are all on the same channel and turned on...
you can image how annoyed I became after the 4th time the lights flickered out...
However, there were a few visually stunning specimens that graced the store...
one of which hung around my area and played a game for a while on the ps3 demo...
I watched adamantly, and studied him for a while...
I know it sounds creepy.
But to tell the truth, thats the closests I will possible get to someone of his caliber of beauty...
I'm not a very attractive person... so its easily assesible that I'm not the more sought after man...
In fact, I've maybe been close to 3 people, none seemily lasting more than a month....
I've maybe been on less than 10 dates... or would could be considered dates...
and I've only been intimate with one person... which I felt was disrupting any emotion i could have had towards him...
I choose to be single only because I have few options than I'd like to beleive I have...
So as of right now... all I have are the short gazes I can steal of others and my sad little dreams...
Its enough to stop me from crying myself to sleep... but not enough to fill the void I created for myself several years ago...
He was the perfect guy... and I pushed him away with my pigheadedness...
I've never felt that way about any other guys... and I know I really never will...
I destroyed my best chance for pure happiness with someone...
I could have shares my life...
now I'm alone... and its all my fault...
Last night was hell...
The power kept going out...
one of my jobs is to make sure the Tvs are all on the same channel and turned on...
you can image how annoyed I became after the 4th time the lights flickered out...
However, there were a few visually stunning specimens that graced the store...
one of which hung around my area and played a game for a while on the ps3 demo...
I watched adamantly, and studied him for a while...
I know it sounds creepy.
But to tell the truth, thats the closests I will possible get to someone of his caliber of beauty...
I'm not a very attractive person... so its easily assesible that I'm not the more sought after man...
In fact, I've maybe been close to 3 people, none seemily lasting more than a month....
I've maybe been on less than 10 dates... or would could be considered dates...
and I've only been intimate with one person... which I felt was disrupting any emotion i could have had towards him...
I choose to be single only because I have few options than I'd like to beleive I have...
So as of right now... all I have are the short gazes I can steal of others and my sad little dreams...
Its enough to stop me from crying myself to sleep... but not enough to fill the void I created for myself several years ago...
He was the perfect guy... and I pushed him away with my pigheadedness...
I've never felt that way about any other guys... and I know I really never will...
I destroyed my best chance for pure happiness with someone...
I could have shares my life...
now I'm alone... and its all my fault...