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hey!..i dunno.do you find that the last song you listen to while drivin to work will reflect on the mood that you'll be in throughout the day?......i did have quite a lot to talk about today but my mind has gone blank.i was deep in thought all day.i've been such an arse l8ly.actually i have'nt....oh i dunno.*baffled*ok....the song i listened to made me think about the past,present and future.yup,in the past i was constantly bussy with my dancing an other sports etc but soon as i hit college,i thought it would open more doors for me.give me other opertunities,point in the right direction.what is the right direction?!?!?instead...you know what happened to me.....i ended up cuttin down on all my sports because the work was gettin on top of me.it quite ironic really because i was studying P.E neway......Neway,everything messed up there.this is what i dont understand.i had a B'grade in my practical and a B'grade in my coursework.my final result was....a U',a fuckin U!come oooonnnn.....im not a dumbass.(those of you who are readin this and think ima dumbass.....im not really)so that was the end of college.so i decided to go into full time work.(i still am in full time work)still,im not doin as much as i used to.infact,im hardly doin nething.i talk about it.i talk about things that i wanna do and whateva..but..its just gettin up an doin it.people hate me for what i do/did.probably explains why i got jumped by 8 people!?!?!is this what life is?'cause if it is its pretty shit for me @ the moment.my moto is...you gotta be doing right for people to hate you...i reckon its all jellousy.well i try to think that....ok..back to the other story..i hate giving things up.i feel guilty.i dunno why.i guess i worry too much bout my fitness.(im not a swell head.....honest!)in the future i wanna go into hard-core entertainment.NO not porn!a full time dancer or something like that.god i sound like those lil kids "i wanna be a pop star!"*cheese*im with an agent @ the moment but hes shit....its not regular work.an he dont pay me on time.....i s'pose iv done quite a lot for my age.toured around parts of Europe.performed a long side UK groups,modelin,but still i find i want to do more.Every1 wants more though,i guess.iv done a lot of righting.mybe i should follow that through.*sigh*i dunno.i might just save all my money an move to miami.have a fresh start.meet new peeps.iv got the money in bank its jus when am i gonna go.i dunno.....
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