Wow. I'm tired.
Of course, that's because it's 5:22am and I haven't gone to sleep yet.
Uh, we stayed up late amusing ourselves with designing characters for an online role-playing group that we'd joined years ago, and that's only just starting up again. It's nice to see those people again, and all.
But, uh, decisions are being made slowly, and so I procrastinate making a post with the character description too. Getting the stats down is a good part of my start. Musing on the philosophies I assume the character to have, also a good start. But, uh, I'm having a real hard time coming up with the pre-vampire days of this Malkavian. And, I think it's needed. As Brad pointed out, going with Amnesia is a cop-out, in this case.
So, I wandered the internet getting others' opinions of Malkavians, wandered looking at character creation/development stuff, and then just sorta wandered wherever. And, uh, it's light out. Fudge. When the heck did that happen? Just an hour ago it was dark and the gas truck was over at the gas station.
Anyway. Real-life stuff? Heh, what's there to update? Not much has happened. I haven't done much, I mean. Brad's parents visited for a little while, and we went down to the other diner to eat, and spent a little time together. Aside from that? Reading, house-making, and much of the conquering of Oblivion. I haven't properly been heading upstairs to say hi like I'd meant to, because I never know when work's being done and/or they're busy. And I can hang out downstairs as well as upstairs. And-and-and? Enter many rambling excuses for my nonactions. Done it before.
It seems like we can do okay, money-wise, without me getting a job. It means pretty much JUST essentials, with 'splurges' being a dollar or two of yummy candy stuff as compared to more food-ish-foods that we know how to prepare. But, we can last until school starts and I have workstudy/or/part-time-job and the pay that comes with it. Official permission to stay off, and the money with it, makes it perfect. But...
I still have that thing of, people giving me advice noting that me getting a job this summer would be good financially and personal-developmentally. It doesn't work, though, if I get one because they told me to. And that's the reason that I was looking, because it would be best in the advice I was given and perceived, all logical and reasonable and figured out. Where the hell do I do actual soul-searching, as in soul-searching that isn't rational/reasonable/consciously-driven, in all of this?
A student asks his master "What is Enlightenment", and the master slaps the student. The student was expecting a calmer, rational response---one of words, ideas communicated. The master's response was to end that complacency. That's the idea I implanted in the Malkavian, and that's the one I'm musing on now. Complacency, breaking it up. Purposely doing something that's uncomfortable? The universe taking me outside my comfort zone? Or, a specific teacher doing that for me? Ah. Gah. I don't know what. But I'm gonna pee and head to sleep. See you all around.
Uh, we stayed up late amusing ourselves with designing characters for an online role-playing group that we'd joined years ago, and that's only just starting up again. It's nice to see those people again, and all.
But, uh, decisions are being made slowly, and so I procrastinate making a post with the character description too. Getting the stats down is a good part of my start. Musing on the philosophies I assume the character to have, also a good start. But, uh, I'm having a real hard time coming up with the pre-vampire days of this Malkavian. And, I think it's needed. As Brad pointed out, going with Amnesia is a cop-out, in this case.
So, I wandered the internet getting others' opinions of Malkavians, wandered looking at character creation/development stuff, and then just sorta wandered wherever. And, uh, it's light out. Fudge. When the heck did that happen? Just an hour ago it was dark and the gas truck was over at the gas station.
Anyway. Real-life stuff? Heh, what's there to update? Not much has happened. I haven't done much, I mean. Brad's parents visited for a little while, and we went down to the other diner to eat, and spent a little time together. Aside from that? Reading, house-making, and much of the conquering of Oblivion. I haven't properly been heading upstairs to say hi like I'd meant to, because I never know when work's being done and/or they're busy. And I can hang out downstairs as well as upstairs. And-and-and? Enter many rambling excuses for my nonactions. Done it before.
It seems like we can do okay, money-wise, without me getting a job. It means pretty much JUST essentials, with 'splurges' being a dollar or two of yummy candy stuff as compared to more food-ish-foods that we know how to prepare. But, we can last until school starts and I have workstudy/or/part-time-job and the pay that comes with it. Official permission to stay off, and the money with it, makes it perfect. But...
I still have that thing of, people giving me advice noting that me getting a job this summer would be good financially and personal-developmentally. It doesn't work, though, if I get one because they told me to. And that's the reason that I was looking, because it would be best in the advice I was given and perceived, all logical and reasonable and figured out. Where the hell do I do actual soul-searching, as in soul-searching that isn't rational/reasonable/consciously-driven, in all of this?
A student asks his master "What is Enlightenment", and the master slaps the student. The student was expecting a calmer, rational response---one of words, ideas communicated. The master's response was to end that complacency. That's the idea I implanted in the Malkavian, and that's the one I'm musing on now. Complacency, breaking it up. Purposely doing something that's uncomfortable? The universe taking me outside my comfort zone? Or, a specific teacher doing that for me? Ah. Gah. I don't know what. But I'm gonna pee and head to sleep. See you all around.