This is to kyle, so everyone else can disregard
i still love him, i know he's not doing what he is suppose to, but I KNOW there is good in him. its just a matter of time for him to find that good and put it into action in his life. i know there is good in him, b/c thats what i fell in love with!!!
Kyle,
you may be reading this just so you can have some sort of "power" over me. i want to tell you something.... i think it was incredibly rude of you to tell me that you were unhappy b/c of me. You weren't happy b/c your conscience was so incredibly guilty! it had nothing to do with me. And then telling my that i didn't treat you good..lol look what you are doing/did! i dont understand how your conscience can carry so much guilt. through our relationship, i would randomly ask you, "kyle are you lying to me about anything?" and your answer was, "no, not anything major". you LIED about LYING! if this is how you love someone, than you need to STOP loving anything and everything! nobody should be put through this!! i dont understand how you could say you are in love with a person, then hurt them beyond reason, and then not give a flying crap about them!!
i've told you many times, but i am going to tell you again...I know that i hurt you last November/december. I am still deeply sorry about that. i was being so selfish! i couldnt see what i was doing at the time, but i do now. i know it was so wrong! Even though you have done the same thing, and have put me in so much pain, i am still sorry about that whole thing! i have grown up so much! i want you to know that i am praying for you. i know there is a good person inside of you! I KNOW THERE IS!! and i know God is going to show you! it's just all in His timing, and when you finally accept God's plan for your life.
I wish i was good enough for you.......wait, i actually think you were right about something...maybe i AM too good for you. i deserve so much more than this pain you have put me through!
maybe you are just reading this to know how i'm doing, b/c something inside you still cares about me...well, i am doing fine. i'm living my life. it's been an awakening experience since you were my life for so long, but i am finally spending time with my friends! i am finally getting a chance to do things i couldn't do when we were together.
i'm not gonna sit here and lie to you and tell you that i don't love you, cuz i do...well i love a part of you. i didn't know the whole kyle. but i know there will be a day when you realize that you were meant to do good, and be a good person. God has given you so much talent. it is killing me right now knowing that it is going to waste.
i have so many emotions, feelings, happiness, sorrow...i cant even describe most of them right now. i just want you to know that i am praying for you. so when you finally get some courage, give me a call and maybe we can talk or something...or at least answer my calls..
I WILL ALWAYS BE PRAYING FOR YOU!!!
~I LOVE YOU~
*Abbey Nicole*
I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our I love you's were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me