Schooling & Fooling
It's been a while, and I plan on using a lot of coloured texts, so get used to it :P
Alright, so school starts in about TWO DAYS, and I have nothing ready whatsoever. My hair is a complete and total mess, but I can't get a haircut until after the first day, how wonderful. I haven't been able to update my wardrobe, but every paycheck makes for a new article of clothing. I need to get all my supplies and shit prepped and I have to HOPE TO GOD that my guidance councilor is not only ABLE, but WILLING to switch two of my classes around.
Yep, school is gonna be pretty awesome.
This summer has been a complete and total flop, and I'm not the only one to admit it. Blame it on the recession or just the fact that our planet is apparently causing summer to become totally fucked weather wise. The weather hasn't affected me whatsoever, but since the money drawback is in effect, I haven't been able to do much of anything. I should have gotten a job, but the scare that it's so hard to get one has forced me into a laze.
So once I get back to school, and into the routine of things, I'm gonna smarten the fuck up. I'm going to get a job, hopefully one I don't hate too much. I'm going to go so hardcore nerd that I'll probably find studying as more of a recreational activity than anything. This is my final year of high school, the one that counts. The one that all the universities are looking at, and then after that it's university, which scares me shitless.
I don't know what it is, but the thought terrifies me. I really don't want to go through the process of taking all of my stuff and moving it somewhere else, but I know for a fact I want to get away from home. Home isn't all that bad, not as bad as any other house really. And since the money issue, it seems I might be forced into staying here for another four years. I just need to get away from it, I've been here too long, it's causing too much complexities with my mind. I need to escape the country, I just don't think it's really my way of living. My mom claims that if I weren't living in the country I wouldn't have the creativity I would because my social life might actual result in the same level as any other teenager. But that's total bullshit, creativity is not a reaction to living space.
I'm so sick of living here, with my parents and all. No offense to my family, but I'm just sick of dealing with them. They claim I eat everything, never clean up after myself, all I do is sit on the computer. Well, I snack through the day rather than eat real meals, I always clean up my dishes, rinse them out and put them in the dishwasher, and there's nothing else to do since our Satellite is non-existent and we have to waste a lot of gas whenever we drive anywhere. And then my mom makes dinner, and doesn't rinse the pot, so I have to go and scrub all of the tomato sauce, cheese and pasta noodles from it. Nothing worse than a hypocrite.
Ugh, as much as I hate school, I really am looking forward to it. Seeing my friends everyday, having something productive to do, hopefully. My friends become my family during the school year, and I'd choose them over my parents any day. I'd rather deal with bitchy jocks and cheerleaders than face my siblings on a regular basis thanks. This is why I want to escape London. London is filled with idiots and retards. Sorry, mentally disfunctioned people. (In the social sense.) I mean London is pretty bad, but from what I can tell, other places are just as bad if not worse. Of course, the money issue presents itself, and I'll probably go to Western and be stuck in London for another four years of my life.
I should have smartened up a long time ago, if I had than maybe I would have had a chance at surviving. But I didn't, and I don't. The future is extremely heavy, and my shoulders can't support it.
Alright, so school starts in about TWO DAYS, and I have nothing ready whatsoever. My hair is a complete and total mess, but I can't get a haircut until after the first day, how wonderful. I haven't been able to update my wardrobe, but every paycheck makes for a new article of clothing. I need to get all my supplies and shit prepped and I have to HOPE TO GOD that my guidance councilor is not only ABLE, but WILLING to switch two of my classes around.
Yep, school is gonna be pretty awesome.
This summer has been a complete and total flop, and I'm not the only one to admit it. Blame it on the recession or just the fact that our planet is apparently causing summer to become totally fucked weather wise. The weather hasn't affected me whatsoever, but since the money drawback is in effect, I haven't been able to do much of anything. I should have gotten a job, but the scare that it's so hard to get one has forced me into a laze.
So once I get back to school, and into the routine of things, I'm gonna smarten the fuck up. I'm going to get a job, hopefully one I don't hate too much. I'm going to go so hardcore nerd that I'll probably find studying as more of a recreational activity than anything. This is my final year of high school, the one that counts. The one that all the universities are looking at, and then after that it's university, which scares me shitless.
I don't know what it is, but the thought terrifies me. I really don't want to go through the process of taking all of my stuff and moving it somewhere else, but I know for a fact I want to get away from home. Home isn't all that bad, not as bad as any other house really. And since the money issue, it seems I might be forced into staying here for another four years. I just need to get away from it, I've been here too long, it's causing too much complexities with my mind. I need to escape the country, I just don't think it's really my way of living. My mom claims that if I weren't living in the country I wouldn't have the creativity I would because my social life might actual result in the same level as any other teenager. But that's total bullshit, creativity is not a reaction to living space.
I'm so sick of living here, with my parents and all. No offense to my family, but I'm just sick of dealing with them. They claim I eat everything, never clean up after myself, all I do is sit on the computer. Well, I snack through the day rather than eat real meals, I always clean up my dishes, rinse them out and put them in the dishwasher, and there's nothing else to do since our Satellite is non-existent and we have to waste a lot of gas whenever we drive anywhere. And then my mom makes dinner, and doesn't rinse the pot, so I have to go and scrub all of the tomato sauce, cheese and pasta noodles from it. Nothing worse than a hypocrite.
Ugh, as much as I hate school, I really am looking forward to it. Seeing my friends everyday, having something productive to do, hopefully. My friends become my family during the school year, and I'd choose them over my parents any day. I'd rather deal with bitchy jocks and cheerleaders than face my siblings on a regular basis thanks. This is why I want to escape London. London is filled with idiots and retards. Sorry, mentally disfunctioned people. (In the social sense.) I mean London is pretty bad, but from what I can tell, other places are just as bad if not worse. Of course, the money issue presents itself, and I'll probably go to Western and be stuck in London for another four years of my life.
I should have smartened up a long time ago, if I had than maybe I would have had a chance at surviving. But I didn't, and I don't. The future is extremely heavy, and my shoulders can't support it.