ramblings
oh man oh man yesterday was tons of fun i got to spend from 11 to like 4:45 with jen and shes one of the funnest ppl to be with she kept thinkin i was sad but really i was surreal just lost in time lost in a moment its kind of funny how things can get so hectic you never take the time to just stop and be grateful and think about all you have not what you dont or any of that negative bullshit to just find solace in knowing that you do have something to live for even if you dont see it i now realize what i have before i mostly focused on what was lost or all the home anguish and fear i know that jen is my world my everything and losing her would be like losing an arm she is a part of me and now ahe makes up who i am and of course i couldlose her at any moment so whats important is i send all the time i can talking to her and holding her and letting her know how i feel cause our time here is very short an i want no regrets