Doctors
I was supposed to get T today. That didn't happen.
I went to my endo's office, got all the paperwork filled out, had all the awkward questions asked by a nurse and then the doctor walked in. She asked me my name; I responded. She asked me what she could do to help me and I said I wanted to start testosterone. After that she pretty much went into a rant of her own about how I'm not ready to make that decision.
Apparently "us girls" sometimes want to become men because we aren't treated fairly in the classrooms. And I "won't ever be able to use male locker rooms" because I don't have a penis. First off, I have a 4.1 GPA. I really don't think getting treated fairly is really an issue for me. Secondly, who is she to say what changing rooms or bathrooms I can or cannot enter? I got a tad angry and said "That's what bathroom stalls are for". I bet 100s of trans people use locker rooms everyday. And I pass 100% of the time in bathrooms.
Then I had the pleasure of listening to how because I am 16 I know nothing about myself. Okay....the person who just met me 5 mins ago is going to tell me what I don't know about myself. Awesome.
I was in a situation where I had to handle it with maturity, so I did. I didn't walk out of the room or call her a few choice words. Instead I defended myself and the decision I am still going to make regardless of what she may think.
In the end, she said I was very mature for my age (thanks?) and that she'll prescribe me testosterone as long as she can do a couple things first.
1.Call my therapist because my letter was insufficient.So as to make sure that she didn't just hand me the letter without letting me know about the consequences. (Because that's totally what happened. I haven't been in therapy for more than a year now. Of course not.)
2.Call pediatrics and make sure it's not going to harm me. (This is the only one that I find somewhat reasonable.)
3.Bloodlevels (Which was what I was expecting)
I'm pissed off and glad at the same time. At least I know she will prescribe it. I just wish she hadn't made so many accusations about who I am. I've had to deal with that enough. Oh well, I only have to see her every 3 months for an hour so I'll put up with it. At least until I can switch to another doctor.
I went to my endo's office, got all the paperwork filled out, had all the awkward questions asked by a nurse and then the doctor walked in. She asked me my name; I responded. She asked me what she could do to help me and I said I wanted to start testosterone. After that she pretty much went into a rant of her own about how I'm not ready to make that decision.
Apparently "us girls" sometimes want to become men because we aren't treated fairly in the classrooms. And I "won't ever be able to use male locker rooms" because I don't have a penis. First off, I have a 4.1 GPA. I really don't think getting treated fairly is really an issue for me. Secondly, who is she to say what changing rooms or bathrooms I can or cannot enter? I got a tad angry and said "That's what bathroom stalls are for". I bet 100s of trans people use locker rooms everyday. And I pass 100% of the time in bathrooms.
Then I had the pleasure of listening to how because I am 16 I know nothing about myself. Okay....the person who just met me 5 mins ago is going to tell me what I don't know about myself. Awesome.
I was in a situation where I had to handle it with maturity, so I did. I didn't walk out of the room or call her a few choice words. Instead I defended myself and the decision I am still going to make regardless of what she may think.
In the end, she said I was very mature for my age (thanks?) and that she'll prescribe me testosterone as long as she can do a couple things first.
1.Call my therapist because my letter was insufficient.So as to make sure that she didn't just hand me the letter without letting me know about the consequences. (Because that's totally what happened. I haven't been in therapy for more than a year now. Of course not.)
2.Call pediatrics and make sure it's not going to harm me. (This is the only one that I find somewhat reasonable.)
3.Bloodlevels (Which was what I was expecting)
I'm pissed off and glad at the same time. At least I know she will prescribe it. I just wish she hadn't made so many accusations about who I am. I've had to deal with that enough. Oh well, I only have to see her every 3 months for an hour so I'll put up with it. At least until I can switch to another doctor.