outspoken
Once again, I need to talk more in my classes. I got my grade knocked down in my seminar class last fall because of it, and again in English and anthropology this past semester. I got my grades back from Professor King's class today, and although the response I got on the semester-long project was "I'm thrilled with your final project. Your writing and your analyses are admirably clear. I was particularly happy with your use of the Riviere article because you provide the most accurate interpretation of it that I have seen all semester," my lack of sufficient participation in class brought my grade down. Everything else (three project phases, the final project, and postings) received solidly good marks. Argh. I'm just not a talkative person unless I'm in the right mood.
No, that's not it. I keep thinking what I have to say is neither helpful nor noteworthy. I hear some useless comments from a few other students and I choose to keep silent rather than waste the class's time. Or in the case of one of my postings for the same class, I wanted to say what I thought out loud, but it was at the end of class and we were out of time. Professor King brought it up in class the next time and asked me to talk about it a bit, but I was caught off guard and got flustered. Maybe I'm just being shy. My postings get comments like "I was particularly impressed that you tackled Cixous and offered an application of that reading to [other students]" and yet I persist in thinking that I have nothing of import to say. I don't know how to convince myself otherwise. Hmm. I'm pleased to hear that I nailed the Riviere, though. I was worried that my whole final project was too simplistic.
No, that's not it. I keep thinking what I have to say is neither helpful nor noteworthy. I hear some useless comments from a few other students and I choose to keep silent rather than waste the class's time. Or in the case of one of my postings for the same class, I wanted to say what I thought out loud, but it was at the end of class and we were out of time. Professor King brought it up in class the next time and asked me to talk about it a bit, but I was caught off guard and got flustered. Maybe I'm just being shy. My postings get comments like "I was particularly impressed that you tackled Cixous and offered an application of that reading to [other students]" and yet I persist in thinking that I have nothing of import to say. I don't know how to convince myself otherwise. Hmm. I'm pleased to hear that I nailed the Riviere, though. I was worried that my whole final project was too simplistic.