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WOW im just updating again because i feel so stupid because i found out jake does read my l/j every day and he read the last one i just posted and i feel twice as stupid because i told him how i felt and it sucks because i care about jake as a friend and as something more but he'll NEVER feel that way about me and i've tried not to care about him as anything but a friend but i cant help it i fall for guys so easily like with Ricky and Eric and i've just tried to close off my heart to guys but it never works so how do i stop myself from getting hurt if i always fall for guys who i cant have? damn im so complex but i just cant help it
sometimes i wish i didnt have a heart it'd make things a WHOLE lot easier but then again wat is life without love.....well actually i can answer that it sucks lol i dont need to ahve a boyfriend to feel loved but i would like to know if there is somebody who cares?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
sometimes i wish i didnt have a heart it'd make things a WHOLE lot easier but then again wat is life without love.....well actually i can answer that it sucks lol i dont need to ahve a boyfriend to feel loved but i would like to know if there is somebody who cares?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?