people
People have a way to break you, shatter you, and leave you hurting in more than just a physical sense. I've been friends with two people for more than eight years and now just before graduation, after all the fights, all the shared stories and the forced suppression of who I truly am, I'm the one whose un-trust worthy.
Me. The one who listened when one or the other was pissed at some one in particular. Me, the one who stuck up for them when other kids wanted to fight. Me, the one who listened to the girl I cared for as more than a friend, go on and on about the guy I told her, would hurt her. That girl never listened.
Now I'm almost done. I get these spells, were my heart just feels cold and I feel so empty inside. It hurts down inside my shell so badly that I want to scream. Me, the girl who heard friend in one breath and bitch in the next, for eight years.
Why? Why did it matter know? Why can't they tell me the real reason? Like ones pissed, because an ex likes me, the same ex I liked, told her, and she started to date or the one who's cutting her ties to her home town and running as fast as she can after graduation. My life sucks. Its full of people that see nothing close to who I am. I am a woman that cries when alone. I am a girl that laughs on the phone. I am a person that hurts to much to seem real.
Why am I the fool?
Me. The one who listened when one or the other was pissed at some one in particular. Me, the one who stuck up for them when other kids wanted to fight. Me, the one who listened to the girl I cared for as more than a friend, go on and on about the guy I told her, would hurt her. That girl never listened.
Now I'm almost done. I get these spells, were my heart just feels cold and I feel so empty inside. It hurts down inside my shell so badly that I want to scream. Me, the girl who heard friend in one breath and bitch in the next, for eight years.
Why? Why did it matter know? Why can't they tell me the real reason? Like ones pissed, because an ex likes me, the same ex I liked, told her, and she started to date or the one who's cutting her ties to her home town and running as fast as she can after graduation. My life sucks. Its full of people that see nothing close to who I am. I am a woman that cries when alone. I am a girl that laughs on the phone. I am a person that hurts to much to seem real.
Why am I the fool?