The time has come...
It's been past more than a week...
It still sucks.
It still hurts.
It's still painful.
Don't understand why this is affecting me SO BADLY. I've never thought I'll ever be in this shape.
But I was wrong.
Tears flow like river.
Heart aches like it's gonna stop anytime, any minute, any second.
The heart yearns to stop beating.
I really wish it would. So I can stop this suffering.
I've never slept in peace since that dreadful msg. I've never had a night where I never teared to sleep. I shocked myself by tearing on a bus full of passengers around me. I shocked myself sitting by the Singapore River, staring, crying... I feel as though I've totally lost myself.
I can't eat well, sleep well, work well.
Maybe I should just find my shell and hide... Makes no difference anyway.. I just dun understand why am I gng thru this.. i never knew i was this vulnerable.
how emo I was.. not being able to control myself in the middle of V-Day Combat... What is Vday?
what are memories?
what is committment?
What is love?
what cannot be fixed?
I can only blame myself.
Shall not depend on people around me anymore. shall not pull people arnd me.. I shall be alone.
I need to let go.
It still sucks.
It still hurts.
It's still painful.
Don't understand why this is affecting me SO BADLY. I've never thought I'll ever be in this shape.
But I was wrong.
Tears flow like river.
Heart aches like it's gonna stop anytime, any minute, any second.
The heart yearns to stop beating.
I really wish it would. So I can stop this suffering.
I've never slept in peace since that dreadful msg. I've never had a night where I never teared to sleep. I shocked myself by tearing on a bus full of passengers around me. I shocked myself sitting by the Singapore River, staring, crying... I feel as though I've totally lost myself.
I can't eat well, sleep well, work well.
Maybe I should just find my shell and hide... Makes no difference anyway.. I just dun understand why am I gng thru this.. i never knew i was this vulnerable.
how emo I was.. not being able to control myself in the middle of V-Day Combat... What is Vday?
what are memories?
what is committment?
What is love?
what cannot be fixed?
I can only blame myself.
Shall not depend on people around me anymore. shall not pull people arnd me.. I shall be alone.
I need to let go.