Fic: Did it Hurt? When you clawed your way up from the depths of hell?
Title~ Did it Hurt? When you clawed your way up from the depths of hell?
Fandom~ Victorious
Characters~ Jade, Tori, Cat, Moose, Beck (Jade/Beck, Jade/Beck/Cat, speculative Jade/Beck/Moose)
Rating~ Teen
Word Count~ 3800+
Summary~ Jade West doesn't believe in competition - leading up to the break-up and after; Spoilers through "Three Girls and a ( Read more... )
Fandom~ Victorious
Characters~ Jade, Tori, Cat, Moose, Beck (Jade/Beck, Jade/Beck/Cat, speculative Jade/Beck/Moose)
Rating~ Teen
Word Count~ 3800+
Summary~ Jade West doesn't believe in competition - leading up to the break-up and after; Spoilers through "Three Girls and a ( Read more... )
And she wants things so much, and she tries so hard, and she never gets as far as she wants to (I try so hard and I'm never the one). YES. And also: this is all your fault.
I loved the tiny little descriptions of what everyone was doing at Tori's house, and later how Jade knew everyone was asleep. Because I kink!family these kids SO HARD. And of COURSE Jade knows everything that everyone is doing - and notices the little details (that Robbie is not one of the boys, that Tori and Cat LOVE EACH OTHER, etc.) It makes me happier than it should to imagine all of these kids just lazing around together.
That whole scene in the dance studio did stupid things to my heart. *g* THIS. Guh. I was so super in love with Jade working her ass off all the time - and no one works harder than a dancer... also - the reality of their desire to be actors is not lost on me, as a previous theatre-kid. Jade is more serious than most, but she canNOT be a playwrite/director without paying her dues. And Jade always pays her dues. She'd never do anything half way. If she's going to ask someone to do something, she'd want to know exactly what she was asking.
((I realize that this is OOC - but Jade is sweating. And it is canon that she doesn't sweat. But - idk - the facade of "I don't have to work hard, ergo I never sweat" is such the antithesis to Jade's reality... I'm seeing that all as a facade and that in that episode, a layer of it was breaking down? Which is splendid, because Beck is SO supportive of that barrier/mask and helps ease her into a place where it's okay to be someone who struggles? IT KINKS MY KINK.))
This is so exactly how I see her \o/
Because Tori just gets things, without even trying and of course that's going to mess with Jade. But she still loves Tori? It's so amazing. I get all ~weepy when I think about how much these kids love each other. (Like how I can't talk about Cat without shipping her with everyone... I can't talk about Tori without everyone loving her so unconditionally - even though, she's pretty much the worst. But they love her.)
I like this reasoning for their fighting. *nods* I'm glad. It's painfully obvious to me that Jade is struggling with something... but Guh.
You broke me. I'm broken. *hands tissue*
This pretty much broke my brain.
I LOVE YOU SO HARD RIGHT NOW. I LOVE YOU PLEASE WRITE ALL THE THINGS!
re: Jade/Beck/dreams-of-Moose ... I got it in my head that Jade would have HAD to have known that Moose existed. So they MUST have talked about him. And her bizarre attraction to him just didn't sit right with me - until I saw all three of them on screen together and I THINK THAT IT'S TRUE!!! I just wanted a crack!drabble about Jade wanting Moose/Beck - and then she ruined everything by being beautiful instead.
It's like I can't think of this show without OT3-ing the hell out of someone. They just don't work in 2s! There's too much LOVE
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It was pretty cathartic to read, as well. Because I'm right there with you on the overidentifying, and I get the feeling that, unlike with Beck, we're overidentifying in pretty much the same way...
And also: this is all your fault.
*Kanye shrug*
It makes me happier than it should to imagine all of these kids just lazing around together.
Because it is an adorable mental image. ADORABLE.
the reality of their desire to be actors is not lost on me, as a previous theatre-kid.
YES. I didn't act, but I was a techie in high school and hung around with all the theatre-kids, and just YES. Also, I've taken dance my whole life, so Jade running through the routines over and over until she was literally too tired to move, really worked for me :D
I like your sweating explanation! Which is a weird sentence now that I'm looking at it.
But she still loves Tori?
I know! Their relationship dynamic is really interesting, because I think Jade legitimately did NOT like her at the beginning, but Tori grew on her and now she loves her, but also I think kind of resents her, because it's so easy for Tori?
I can't talk about Tori without everyone loving her so unconditionally - even though, she's pretty much the worst. But they love her.
Right? She gets them into so much crap, but everyone loves her, and it's pretty cute.
It's painfully obvious to me that Jade is struggling with something... but Guh.
This. I also tend to think it has something to do with both of them not being super fantastic at talking things out, so when Jade can't articulate what's wrong and Beck doesn't know how to get her to talk about it, and then he gets mad because she's always snapping and then their snapping at each other and no one can figure out how to fix it. Which they shouldn't have to know, because they're just kids. I also have this sort-of idea that they're both starting to freak out a little about their relationship. Not because they don't want to be together, but because they can't imagine not being together, and the thought of falling in love with someone at 14 and then never falling out of love with that person would be scary. Idk. It would have freaked me the hell out when I was 17, so...
PLEASE WRITE ALL THE THINGS!
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Yes to those Jade/Beck/Moose thoughts. I'm going to pretend that that's a thing happens in the future.
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Also, I've taken dance my whole life, so Jade running through the routines over and over until she was literally too tired to move, really worked for me :D \o/ I'm so SUPER glad! Jade/dancing is this horribly sado-masochistic ship that kinks all my kinks.
I like your sweating explanation! THIS SHOW. It thinks it doesn't have ~depth BUT IT DOES.
Jade/Tori is lovely and painful and just. Gods I love them like WHAT.
Right? She gets them into so much crap, but everyone loves her, and it's pretty cute. I'm so "if I love you and you love something, I'll love it too" and ... so I love Tori because they love her. It works for me! (It's like someone wrote this show for me and it just... IDEK how that happened? All the threesomes and the love and the drama-kids and the family!kinks... how did this happen?)
Not because they don't want to be together, but because they can't imagine not being together, and the thought of falling in love with someone at 14 and then never falling out of love with that person would be scary. Idk. It would have freaked me the hell out when I was 17, so... THIS.
I have nothing left to say about this. It's perfection. And probably so true.
Yes to those Jade/Beck/Moose thoughts. I'm going to pretend that that's a thing happens in the future. WORD
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Quite awesome!
Jade/dancing is this horribly sado-masochistic ship that kinks all my kinks.
It's a good one! also that one time when she and Beck took salsa dancing
It thinks it doesn't have ~depth BUT IT DOES.
It totally does! And on a shallower, Jade-hates-sweating note, one of my squares for kink bingo is bodily secretions, and there's a pretty good chance that it's going to end up being sweat, Jade/Beck, and something along the lines of "Hey, I know you think sweating is gross, but I bet I can make you sweat in a fun way."
(It's like someone wrote this show for me and it just... IDEK how that happened? All the threesomes and the love and the drama-kids and the family!kinks... how did this happen?
THIS IS WHAT I'M SAYING. I just meant to watch a couple episodes because it was summer and I was bored and there was nothing else on tv. And then somehow this silly little kid's show started hitting ALL OF MY KINKS. I'm pretty sure there isn't any other show that hits as many of my kinks. There are shows that hit certain kinks a lot harder, or hit bigger kinks, but I can't think of anything else that hits as many total. Especially if I'm counting kinks that aren't canonically there, but probably would be if it wasn't on Nick... And I'm just over in the corner, all "Wait, how the hell did this happen?"
I have nothing left to say about this. It's perfection. And probably so true.
:DDD one of my sort-of written stories is has some of this happening in it and maybe I'll finish that up tonight, because now that I'm thinking about it, I want to work on it. *g*
I forgot that I was going to mention this in response to the J/B/Moose in my last comment, so I'm saying it now. One of the reasons that I can totally buy the two of them thinking about doing things with Moose, is that part of my head!canon (and I might have said this before, I honestly can't remember. I know it's incorporated in another WIP) is that there isn't a lot of sex stuff that makes them uncomfortable, because I also have it in my head that they got pretty far, pretty fast and a lot of that exploration/experimentation stuff that most young adolescents do on their own, the two of them did together, because why not? So they're both pretty open with each other about what they want/like/fantasize about, in a way that's more similar to an adult relationship instead of a teenaged one (because most of their relationship seems more like adults than kids, lbr) partially because of their personalities, and partially because there are so many things they accidentally discovered they liked together.
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EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS! YES.
:DDD one of my sort-of written stories is has some of this happening in it and maybe I'll finish that up tonight
*grabby hands*
is that there isn't a lot of sex stuff that makes them uncomfortable
The amount of times Jade mentions "good pain" and the "tummy rubbing" incident, combined with the handcuffs and the "time out" scene...... THIS SHIT IS CANON.
And - idk - in my head, this is a major reason why Beck/Tori is so awkward-friends level interaction. Because she's such the baby of the group, to me. Possibly because she's so gay and doesn't know it
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So I did not finish it up this weekend, mostly because my common sense kicked in and insisted I spend time on the large amount of homework I have due tomorrow. But I feel bad because I said I was going to finish it and didn't, so here have an excerpt from it instead:
"It’s over. He’ll move on. Or, at least, he’ll move forward. But it’s hard because she’s everywhere he looks. Everywhere he goes. And if she’s not there in person, she’s left reminders. She’s still all over the RV. Her clothes taking up space in his closet, a pair of her boots sticking halfway out from under his bed, her books on his table, her handwriting on his whiteboard, and a black stain of eyeliner on his (her) pillow from makeup she’d forgotten to take off before falling asleep. He doesn’t know what to do with any of it, so he leaves everything where it is and hopes Jade will come collecting soon.
She doesn’t. He deals.
(He doesn’t). "
The amount of times Jade mentions "good pain" and the "tummy rubbing" incident, combined with the handcuffs and the "time out" scene...... THIS SHIT IS CANON.
SO CANON. It's like they're not even trying to be subtle. And since this show is apparently reading my mind, I'm pretty sure every kink they allude to is on my list somewhere... But in all seriousness, I really like imagining inexperienced Jade/Beck fumbling around and figuring out what they're into and eventually getting to the point where they're ~really good at sex, but it has less to do with being good at sex and more to do with being good with each other.
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so he leaves everything where it is and hopes Jade will come collecting soon.
Just break my heart why don't you?
but it has less to do with being good at sex and more to do with being good with each other.
See... now I want ALL THE FIC of them trying to be sexy with other people and just utterly, completely ~failing at life. Because if you grow up around a person like that - there's no way that you'd be "normal" by the same standards as other people, you know? Everything about the way you think about bodies and your body is so tied up in that other person ... engaging in a new physical relationship would be a whole new level of awkward and scary. POOR PUPPIES!
This may or may not be an utterly and completely true fear in my life right now
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But it's so very much the opposite of fun... (Peer critique question sheets for two of my classmates short stories)
Just break my heart why don't you?
I try :D
ee... now I want ALL THE FIC of them trying to be sexy with other people and just utterly, completely ~failing at life.
This is all I want from life, basically. Also something I am definitely going to write. And possibly answer your trick or treat on my halloween meme with it. And by possibly, I mean I'm writing you comment fic as we speak.
Because if you grow up around a person like that - there's no way that you'd be "normal" by the same standards as other people, you know? Everything about the way you think about bodies and your body is so tied up in that other person ... engaging in a new physical relationship would be a whole new level of awkward and scary. POOR PUPPIES!
YES. EXACTLY. Because when you're young like that and exploring and neither of you any prior experience and not many occasions to talk about sex with your peers in a non-theoretical way, you're pretty much just making it up as you go and if it feels good keep doing it. Also, I may have a couple thousand words of a story that was supposed to be straight-up porn for kink_bingo, that somehow turned into not much porn and a lot of this sort of thing. And the word doc is saved as Handcuffs: The Origin Story. So that's a thing I have on my computer...
This may or may not be an utterly and completely true fear in my life right now
:(
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