identity crisis

Oct 24, 2011 00:29

A few days ago I got a call from a lady trying to entice me to open up a credit card account. During the call I was asked about my financial activities, which lead to a question which I couldn't really answer... The lady asked me if I was a HK person. My immediate reply was my father is a HK person... but she pursued her question with me, I could almost hear the muffled laughter from her as I stumbled around for an answer. There was just something very cute about that moment with the lady and perhaps even her. Obviously I let slip where I was born but it did make me wonder do I consider myself a HK person?

Locals here often refer to me as a banana hence the name of this blog. I know my father has always try to teach me to respect the fact regardless of anyone else says or how I feel, I am a Chinese person. Because of my ancestrial history which stretches far beyond British Colonal rule, my father even goes as far as to say I have more right to live in HK than the vast majority of who he describes as HK immigrants from the mainland. But does this make me a HK person. As I have said before local people often refer to me as a banana. Though I look Chinese, on the inside people see me differently, I have very different attitudes and views to the locals here. In that sense I wouldn't say I'm a HK person. Annie once said to me one reason why she never told me certain stuff was she was afraid how I would react as I had in her opinion very strong moral values. I wouldn't say I have strong moral values but I can be exceptionally opinionated on what is right and wrong. A lot of the cheating I see going on around HK frankly makes me sick.

In some ways I find myself much more attune to what people are like in Japan and their culture, but I'm definately not a Japanese person. I have been described byb those that know me to go out my way to help people. Something I know in HK and even in the UK more people would question if there is an ulterior motive for this behaviour, whereas in Japan nothing would be thought of it. However even amongst the Japanese I am far more outspoken than the vast majority of them, something much more in tune with HK locals.

My British upbringing has always instilled me with values like looking after those who are not capable of looking after themselves or less able than yourself. treating others the way you wish to be treated. Don't respond to negativity and be tolerant of others.

I'm left flondering around at just what do I regard myself as. I am Chinese but am I HK person? In fact what constitutes a HK person?
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