desperation and perspiration
so today i had a panic attack of sorts i guess you could call it.
i dont know why. maybe the reality of all the death around me is finally hitting me with an open hand to the face.
i felt extreme feelings of hopelessness and pointlessness today for some reason. some lost feeling of desperation. i can explain it really, but it takes your breath and makes your head spin.
its not a good feeling at all. i hate it. i just wish that i could stop constantly thinking about death and what happens afterwards
i wish i could live a normal life and just be content with my surroundings and the fact that im still alive.
i felt such desperation today that i was even afraid to go to sleep for fear of not waking up. and im now convinced that each day i wake up is my last. i guess thats how we need to live it anyway
please tell me im not crazy. please tell this makes sense and that im not the only one that thinks this way sometimes.
i dont know why. maybe the reality of all the death around me is finally hitting me with an open hand to the face.
i felt extreme feelings of hopelessness and pointlessness today for some reason. some lost feeling of desperation. i can explain it really, but it takes your breath and makes your head spin.
its not a good feeling at all. i hate it. i just wish that i could stop constantly thinking about death and what happens afterwards
i wish i could live a normal life and just be content with my surroundings and the fact that im still alive.
i felt such desperation today that i was even afraid to go to sleep for fear of not waking up. and im now convinced that each day i wake up is my last. i guess thats how we need to live it anyway
please tell me im not crazy. please tell this makes sense and that im not the only one that thinks this way sometimes.