my lil comment to une_femme
You know, whenever I comment on someone's xanga (a serious entry)... I notice that my entries tend to grow longer than theirs... it's as if this little light in me sparks up and I'm off with no stop... of course always giving the same message... the same lil tidbits with the same fwds and whatnots... it's so easy when you generalize so much that it's easy to find those same words to touch someone else.
It's funny how I've been staring at this empty screen... trying to find the words I wanted to say... I knew it was coming... I just needed something to set it off. And it's funny, coz what I wanted to say... was kind of shuffeled in there... so I guess that little something in there might burst into something bigger later... but for now I'm livejournal-ing my comment... in fear that I may loose it, as I've lost so many of my other LONG comments to other people who've decided to private all those old entries of theirs... and to start anew.
(of course I'm editing it a bit... yeah I got lazy after the first two sentences I gave her... haha)
"it sucks when your heart can choose who to love. When it yearns for a love that is someone your parents don't want you to. But what can they do? You guys already live in two different countries...
and the being 12 thing... that's just the filipino way... I understand that totally... not totally in your way... but I gets... it sucks. But you get a little freedom at least... me, I'm stuck under their rules of utos and whatnots and probably will always be. But it's life... just remember you have it better off then so many other people out there. Just having that special someone... no matter how hard it may be, that's luck right there. How many people have that?
Since we can't change our parents since their soo stubborn in their filipino ways... make the best out of it... sooner or later the rainbow will come of the clouds and the sun will be shining and the birds will be chirping... it's going to take them awhile to accept Tyrone... maybe any boy for that matter... but don't let it bring you down.
Remember, the course of Love never did run smoothly...
heh I'm beginning to think I understand that *wink* ... I've been there in one way or another... I put Ryan through so much shit... through two Valentine break-ups, through the endless acts of acting like we were not togehter - and that says a lot for someone who needs that emotional stability to put up with all of that... I mean yes, we did break-up because I didn't think it was fair on his part... and then for many other reasons other than that (which I'm sure when you're bored and read through mypiece or xanga you're sure to find those reasons) ... but in the end our love always brought us back together... reasons I have yet to even understand... but whatever those reasons were... through all those ups and downs... I'm glad they all happened coz it made our relationship stronger.
aww damn... I'm hearing my mommy asking for my sisters grade... that D+ that I don't believe I should have gotten is going to kick me in the butt... I'm so debating whether to scratch it off and change it to spare me from the lectures I know ohhh too well. Sometimes I wish they understood how the whole system works here in the states... their soo used to the Philippines having it all laid out for you and worst getting facts from my mommy's patients that it causes a major stressor when we are found the dumb ones who are clueless and just want to breeze through like all the other college students. (well most of them anways)...
I'll be praying for ya... no worries happiness is just around the corner. God is always there to guide you... at least you'll always have one person on your side... even if he's not there physically! Trust Him... "for we may not always get what we want, we may not always get what we need... but we always get what we deserve, because God always gives us what is BEST!" Whatever this battle is that God is throwing at you, He knows you can handle it, learn from it, and grow from it...
ingat ka!"
It's funny how I've been staring at this empty screen... trying to find the words I wanted to say... I knew it was coming... I just needed something to set it off. And it's funny, coz what I wanted to say... was kind of shuffeled in there... so I guess that little something in there might burst into something bigger later... but for now I'm livejournal-ing my comment... in fear that I may loose it, as I've lost so many of my other LONG comments to other people who've decided to private all those old entries of theirs... and to start anew.
(of course I'm editing it a bit... yeah I got lazy after the first two sentences I gave her... haha)
"it sucks when your heart can choose who to love. When it yearns for a love that is someone your parents don't want you to. But what can they do? You guys already live in two different countries...
and the being 12 thing... that's just the filipino way... I understand that totally... not totally in your way... but I gets... it sucks. But you get a little freedom at least... me, I'm stuck under their rules of utos and whatnots and probably will always be. But it's life... just remember you have it better off then so many other people out there. Just having that special someone... no matter how hard it may be, that's luck right there. How many people have that?
Since we can't change our parents since their soo stubborn in their filipino ways... make the best out of it... sooner or later the rainbow will come of the clouds and the sun will be shining and the birds will be chirping... it's going to take them awhile to accept Tyrone... maybe any boy for that matter... but don't let it bring you down.
Remember, the course of Love never did run smoothly...
heh I'm beginning to think I understand that *wink* ... I've been there in one way or another... I put Ryan through so much shit... through two Valentine break-ups, through the endless acts of acting like we were not togehter - and that says a lot for someone who needs that emotional stability to put up with all of that... I mean yes, we did break-up because I didn't think it was fair on his part... and then for many other reasons other than that (which I'm sure when you're bored and read through mypiece or xanga you're sure to find those reasons) ... but in the end our love always brought us back together... reasons I have yet to even understand... but whatever those reasons were... through all those ups and downs... I'm glad they all happened coz it made our relationship stronger.
aww damn... I'm hearing my mommy asking for my sisters grade... that D+ that I don't believe I should have gotten is going to kick me in the butt... I'm so debating whether to scratch it off and change it to spare me from the lectures I know ohhh too well. Sometimes I wish they understood how the whole system works here in the states... their soo used to the Philippines having it all laid out for you and worst getting facts from my mommy's patients that it causes a major stressor when we are found the dumb ones who are clueless and just want to breeze through like all the other college students. (well most of them anways)...
I'll be praying for ya... no worries happiness is just around the corner. God is always there to guide you... at least you'll always have one person on your side... even if he's not there physically! Trust Him... "for we may not always get what we want, we may not always get what we need... but we always get what we deserve, because God always gives us what is BEST!" Whatever this battle is that God is throwing at you, He knows you can handle it, learn from it, and grow from it...
ingat ka!"