TM Response: When in your life did you know you were not alone?
I've always been alone. There have been times that I was alone by choice, and times that I was alone by...fate? I don't know. There was one brief period of time that I wasn't alone. For three years I knew I wasn't alone. As soon as I met her, I knew.
But now? Now things are back to the way they've always been. Being alone becomes me.
Some might wonder how I could say such a thing, being that I'm a mother. Henry is the absolute light of my life. He makes me happier than I've been in ages. I have no idea how I would've coped after Sandy died if it weren't for him. Yes, there was a lot of stress in that area; dealing with the legal battle over my son was absolutely a stressor in my life, but simply knowing that he was there saved me in more ways than one.
I love my son more than anyone could ever know, but there are certain voids that he'll never be able to fill and shouldn't feel obligated to. When the three of us were together, that void was filled beyond comprehension. For three wonderful years, I wasn't alone. We weren't alone.
Now it's almost as if I'm trying to find a balance between the two; between the togetherness of my memories, and the partial isolation of my reality.
But now? Now things are back to the way they've always been. Being alone becomes me.
Some might wonder how I could say such a thing, being that I'm a mother. Henry is the absolute light of my life. He makes me happier than I've been in ages. I have no idea how I would've coped after Sandy died if it weren't for him. Yes, there was a lot of stress in that area; dealing with the legal battle over my son was absolutely a stressor in my life, but simply knowing that he was there saved me in more ways than one.
I love my son more than anyone could ever know, but there are certain voids that he'll never be able to fill and shouldn't feel obligated to. When the three of us were together, that void was filled beyond comprehension. For three wonderful years, I wasn't alone. We weren't alone.
Now it's almost as if I'm trying to find a balance between the two; between the togetherness of my memories, and the partial isolation of my reality.