Today wasn't a good day.
Everyone says "grow up" but what does that really mean? Should I really grow up now or take my time and enjoy being a kid? I don't want to end up so grown I'm anal and not fun. i was jsut thinking about my sister. She is 20 and has been telling me to grow up, but has she? NOPE! Still a child. And still wants to be one. Yet she wants to be treated like an adult. Just like me. I want to leave my parents and be idependent but I'm afraid to leave a place where I'm cared for. I will have to provide everything for myself. So I want that? Nope. So "growing up" is a bittersweet term.
I am so glad that God blessed me to live with people that love me, and care for me. But I feel t so bad when they do so much for me and I can't even make decent grades. I feel like I let them down. Is that normal? I really do try my best.
Very often I think about something I said about someone that was very terrible. It makes me feel undescribably remorseful because I know that if that had happened to me, I would be devastated. But also, I would be even more devastated if that person had done something that they knew was wrong, and did it anyway. SOmething so wrong, they paid the consequence with their life.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, -------........
I don't even know. I'm jsut writing.
I am so glad that God blessed me to live with people that love me, and care for me. But I feel t so bad when they do so much for me and I can't even make decent grades. I feel like I let them down. Is that normal? I really do try my best.
Very often I think about something I said about someone that was very terrible. It makes me feel undescribably remorseful because I know that if that had happened to me, I would be devastated. But also, I would be even more devastated if that person had done something that they knew was wrong, and did it anyway. SOmething so wrong, they paid the consequence with their life.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, -------........
I don't even know. I'm jsut writing.