Music, remembering the good times
I got to see Liam today for the first time since I got back, we had a coffee, chatted and enjoyed a pleasant chat. It was weird, sitting with this guy, that I was looking at spending the rest of my life living in his pocket. To suddenly have one of my most professional relationships shattered, his epilepsy still feels like i've been cheated on, and I'm guessing he feels similarily. I know deep down that that's no way near fare and as a comparason it's way out of line and really unfair. I'm also well aware that his epilepsy hurts him far more than it ever could be, purely and simply as while all 3 of us lost out on our hardwork, Liam has lost out on his dreams permanently. I, on the other hand can still be in a band, can still play gigs, can still make music and have a good time. I can still be praised by people alike. I can still get on stage
And in a way, i'm doubly lucky. I've found a band attacking from a purely different angle to what i did before. The danger was allways that i'ld end up joining a punk funk band and be trying to get what i had. Like going out with someone who looks like an ex, desperatly fucking them to try and remember what it was like with the ex. Thankfully that's not gonna happen. I'm playing in a band making music that i'm interested in as well, that is more mature and that I enjoy. I'm playing with people i like, but i still have questions. What would I rather be doing, what was more fun. I know we romantacise the past, but it all seemed so much better with alex and liam. Arse. that's what,
ARSE
I know really, that as long as I enjoy the sort of music i play i should go for it. That it takes time for bands to find their sound, and that there's no other band i'ld rather be in. I'm looking forward to the old things that happened before that i loved
The gigs
The first dances
The other time your audience become more fans and less mates
the getting signed
The joy.
Basically, im a big wanker
night all
And in a way, i'm doubly lucky. I've found a band attacking from a purely different angle to what i did before. The danger was allways that i'ld end up joining a punk funk band and be trying to get what i had. Like going out with someone who looks like an ex, desperatly fucking them to try and remember what it was like with the ex. Thankfully that's not gonna happen. I'm playing in a band making music that i'm interested in as well, that is more mature and that I enjoy. I'm playing with people i like, but i still have questions. What would I rather be doing, what was more fun. I know we romantacise the past, but it all seemed so much better with alex and liam. Arse. that's what,
ARSE
I know really, that as long as I enjoy the sort of music i play i should go for it. That it takes time for bands to find their sound, and that there's no other band i'ld rather be in. I'm looking forward to the old things that happened before that i loved
The gigs
The first dances
The other time your audience become more fans and less mates
the getting signed
The joy.
Basically, im a big wanker
night all