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In the needs of not finishing my lab report i've resorted to extreme desperate measures. I'm updating my blog, partly to avoid doing work that acctually counts towards something, and mostly because I feel like I really really should more often
So the whole thing with Izzy fell through, i was correct, and that's a good thing in a way. I don't want to go out with Izzy again, I want to move forward, and learn from the past, not live in it. My love life currently sits on the fact that oi'm too scared to talk to a girl that i'm absolutely crazy about. Why?
Because I'm me. Because I'm this huge failure at all of this, because annie saw through me, because izzy did, as did sarah, and christy; the less said the better. I want desperatly to be this wonderful great person, but i can't manage it. I can't honestly dedicate my life to someone the way you're supposed to, I'm just too fucking retarded for it. So I'm gonna sit, staring at her contact details,with hey still typed in the bottom of the browser in the vein hope she talks to me. Which she won't. & I'm falling in love with someone from Northern Island who likes Red Organ Serpent Sound. FANTASTIC.
The band had a slow practice today, which is ok i guess, though Andy's amp was sounding wank, and we do have an intro to a set sorted, so that's quite cool. We're getting really tight in general as well, so It's all eyes towards battle of the bands. I think Tony offered to manage us as well, which is mega awesome cool.
Very mega awesome cool.
But yeah, life's good, in a completely retarded way i'm content. This means that i've clearly lowered my standards
So the whole thing with Izzy fell through, i was correct, and that's a good thing in a way. I don't want to go out with Izzy again, I want to move forward, and learn from the past, not live in it. My love life currently sits on the fact that oi'm too scared to talk to a girl that i'm absolutely crazy about. Why?
Because I'm me. Because I'm this huge failure at all of this, because annie saw through me, because izzy did, as did sarah, and christy; the less said the better. I want desperatly to be this wonderful great person, but i can't manage it. I can't honestly dedicate my life to someone the way you're supposed to, I'm just too fucking retarded for it. So I'm gonna sit, staring at her contact details,with hey still typed in the bottom of the browser in the vein hope she talks to me. Which she won't. & I'm falling in love with someone from Northern Island who likes Red Organ Serpent Sound. FANTASTIC.
The band had a slow practice today, which is ok i guess, though Andy's amp was sounding wank, and we do have an intro to a set sorted, so that's quite cool. We're getting really tight in general as well, so It's all eyes towards battle of the bands. I think Tony offered to manage us as well, which is mega awesome cool.
Very mega awesome cool.
But yeah, life's good, in a completely retarded way i'm content. This means that i've clearly lowered my standards