Life post Testing
Much has changed since I last updated. I had my two weeks from hell, AKA: combination of 3 exams, 1 final, and the MCAT. I got through it all.
MCAT
I didn't do as well as I would have like to have done on the MCAT. It doesn't help that I see my score as a pass or fail. Anywhere below a certain score, to me, means failure. Below a 27. Kind of harsh. I need to make that score for people to take my major and my GPA seriously. I don't find out until around the second week in June. I'm not excited about finding out. I kind of don't want to find out. All 5 of my practice tests were given from 8:30-3:30. This is what it should have been also for the real thing. But, there were many more things to be done in betweeen the sections in the real thing. They had to count every page in the test booklet. We also had to fill out a completely new scantron for each of the sections. The real test stretched out 9:30 ( i got there at 7;30) to 6:30. It was ridiculous, and for the first couple of hours--hot (services had to come turn on the AC for us) we don't need that anyway in April, so why even think about that, right? They were superstrict in security, they almost didn't let me in because my signature did not match my DL signature. I had to resign and try to make it look like it. They also took our thumbprints. There were about 100 people stuffed in my nonauditorium room in Turead. I'm glad I was middle way in the line to get in, cause they ran out of right-handed desks for the last 15 people in. I wish I could claim all of the sucky conditions as to why my score will not be very high...but I guess its my fault for not realizing that such conditions could exist. Anyway, I'm not bitter...I can take it again in August or I can forget about medical school and go to pimpin Pharmacy school. I'd be a star in Pharmacy.
Life Outside of School
Anyone who has known me for a while, knew that I had a boyfriend of about five years. Well, in the past couple of weeks, his mom died. It came out of nowhere. Not sick, not fat, in her forties, didn't work...just died of a heart attack. She sent me a card on my birthday. Her son and I have not spoken for like 3 yrs...I wanted to send her a 'thank you' for the thoughtful card. It really caught me offguard, it was really sweet. I kept putting it off though. and before you know it, poof, and the opportunity is no longer there. I went to her funeral, saw my ex and his family. I really did miss them a lot. He has two little sisters (college age). All that happened around the anniversary of when my own dad died, so i guess it kind of hit me hard. Made me realize that we never know and that we are at the mercy of our mortality. It kind of lightens your load. Sometimes I get so bogged down in little things like tests and grades and work to realize that yes, i am living my one life right now, and it can be taken at any moment. I shouldn't hestitate to do something important like sending a 'thank you' or calling a loved one, or visiting a loved one. On the day after the funeral i get a call from my cousin. My grandmother is expected to die within 3 weeks. She's not in hospital, shes waiting for her time at home. I haven't seen her in probably 5 years. She lives outside of Beaumont, TX. We dont have a close relationship--it kind of broke off after the death of my daddy 13 years ago. I called her without hesitation. I really didn't know what to say. But, maybe just saying that I love her made a difference. I'm going to go see her this weekend with Peter.
April is a very powerful month. Stuff happens in April. It always does for some reason for me.
My 'Garden'
I'm very proud of my garden on my deck. I have a small deck overlooking a field at my apt. I have red begonias, impatients, sunflowers, a geranium, and peppermint petunas! Peter and I even went to a hibiscus sale and got a RED one. Looks flippin fly. I bought a hummingbird feeder, and guess what, the same day I saw a hummingbird at it. Just thought I'd share a little triumph. (None of the plants have died yet in 3 weeks!!) That's a record for me.
Peace out and have a wonderful day.
MCAT
I didn't do as well as I would have like to have done on the MCAT. It doesn't help that I see my score as a pass or fail. Anywhere below a certain score, to me, means failure. Below a 27. Kind of harsh. I need to make that score for people to take my major and my GPA seriously. I don't find out until around the second week in June. I'm not excited about finding out. I kind of don't want to find out. All 5 of my practice tests were given from 8:30-3:30. This is what it should have been also for the real thing. But, there were many more things to be done in betweeen the sections in the real thing. They had to count every page in the test booklet. We also had to fill out a completely new scantron for each of the sections. The real test stretched out 9:30 ( i got there at 7;30) to 6:30. It was ridiculous, and for the first couple of hours--hot (services had to come turn on the AC for us) we don't need that anyway in April, so why even think about that, right? They were superstrict in security, they almost didn't let me in because my signature did not match my DL signature. I had to resign and try to make it look like it. They also took our thumbprints. There were about 100 people stuffed in my nonauditorium room in Turead. I'm glad I was middle way in the line to get in, cause they ran out of right-handed desks for the last 15 people in. I wish I could claim all of the sucky conditions as to why my score will not be very high...but I guess its my fault for not realizing that such conditions could exist. Anyway, I'm not bitter...I can take it again in August or I can forget about medical school and go to pimpin Pharmacy school. I'd be a star in Pharmacy.
Life Outside of School
Anyone who has known me for a while, knew that I had a boyfriend of about five years. Well, in the past couple of weeks, his mom died. It came out of nowhere. Not sick, not fat, in her forties, didn't work...just died of a heart attack. She sent me a card on my birthday. Her son and I have not spoken for like 3 yrs...I wanted to send her a 'thank you' for the thoughtful card. It really caught me offguard, it was really sweet. I kept putting it off though. and before you know it, poof, and the opportunity is no longer there. I went to her funeral, saw my ex and his family. I really did miss them a lot. He has two little sisters (college age). All that happened around the anniversary of when my own dad died, so i guess it kind of hit me hard. Made me realize that we never know and that we are at the mercy of our mortality. It kind of lightens your load. Sometimes I get so bogged down in little things like tests and grades and work to realize that yes, i am living my one life right now, and it can be taken at any moment. I shouldn't hestitate to do something important like sending a 'thank you' or calling a loved one, or visiting a loved one. On the day after the funeral i get a call from my cousin. My grandmother is expected to die within 3 weeks. She's not in hospital, shes waiting for her time at home. I haven't seen her in probably 5 years. She lives outside of Beaumont, TX. We dont have a close relationship--it kind of broke off after the death of my daddy 13 years ago. I called her without hesitation. I really didn't know what to say. But, maybe just saying that I love her made a difference. I'm going to go see her this weekend with Peter.
April is a very powerful month. Stuff happens in April. It always does for some reason for me.
My 'Garden'
I'm very proud of my garden on my deck. I have a small deck overlooking a field at my apt. I have red begonias, impatients, sunflowers, a geranium, and peppermint petunas! Peter and I even went to a hibiscus sale and got a RED one. Looks flippin fly. I bought a hummingbird feeder, and guess what, the same day I saw a hummingbird at it. Just thought I'd share a little triumph. (None of the plants have died yet in 3 weeks!!) That's a record for me.
Peace out and have a wonderful day.