end of an era
well i just finished yet another summer at drift creek camp. and it was amazing, it topped any and all expectations. once again i went in thinking i could just get some money from them and offer my services as babysitter for a month. but we both gave and recieved so much more.
ive heard second hand from my mom via other parents how much ive impacted the lives of their children. i feel humbled that i could really have that much of a difference in someone's life and not know it. it really makes me think.
i also was told by the other staff how much i affected them and how much they apprectiated me. it really amazes me that i could do so much with such selfish ideals.
but i recieved so much as well. the kids were amazing, the really gave me an awesome and fun month. it showed me a lot about what it means to live without cares or worries, which it something i strive for. the rest of the staff was awesome for me as well. their values of servanthood and caring were touching and the connections we developed are something i want to continue for the rest of my life.
most of all the pure experiance of living secluded from reality for a month so close to nature, other people, and God (which could all be the same thing) and away from civilization was sweeeeeet. the rest and relaxation that gave me was so amazing. my brain, which was fried after a grueling year of school needed that time off.
BUT, and this is a big but...
i have this deep feeling that that was my last summer at drift creek. i didnt have that feeling last year and i tried to get away and it seemed like everything pulled me back, plus it was like a huge reunion of my old friends from years and years ago on staff this year. I just feel like in the last 3 months i have matured so much and this last month was my "right of passage" so to speak, or the end of the road for "Child Ryan". He is gone and its time for responsible adult ryan to pick up and go.
ive heard second hand from my mom via other parents how much ive impacted the lives of their children. i feel humbled that i could really have that much of a difference in someone's life and not know it. it really makes me think.
i also was told by the other staff how much i affected them and how much they apprectiated me. it really amazes me that i could do so much with such selfish ideals.
but i recieved so much as well. the kids were amazing, the really gave me an awesome and fun month. it showed me a lot about what it means to live without cares or worries, which it something i strive for. the rest of the staff was awesome for me as well. their values of servanthood and caring were touching and the connections we developed are something i want to continue for the rest of my life.
most of all the pure experiance of living secluded from reality for a month so close to nature, other people, and God (which could all be the same thing) and away from civilization was sweeeeeet. the rest and relaxation that gave me was so amazing. my brain, which was fried after a grueling year of school needed that time off.
BUT, and this is a big but...
i have this deep feeling that that was my last summer at drift creek. i didnt have that feeling last year and i tried to get away and it seemed like everything pulled me back, plus it was like a huge reunion of my old friends from years and years ago on staff this year. I just feel like in the last 3 months i have matured so much and this last month was my "right of passage" so to speak, or the end of the road for "Child Ryan". He is gone and its time for responsible adult ryan to pick up and go.