2010/Jun/18/Morning - "Like A Million Pieces"
What fears can you release to God today?
I feel quite peaceful in this moment. So far today I have had a quiet and relaxing time. I made a tasty breakfast, a parmesan-seasoned ham, cheese, and spinach sandwich made with olive-oil mayonnaise on an onion-bun, served warm and with milk. Then I listened to some fascinating Quirks And Quarks podcasts. After that I played around with my Carcassonne tiles (Last night I played three rounds with Denis; he won twice, but the time I won it was with a huge 50+ point margin), making an idealised map with no incomplete roads or cities, and one massive city in the centre. It has been a relaxing day up to now, and I have not been in much of a fearful mood at all. If I were to visit that frame of mind, I would be petrified that I will not make the minimum grade on my French test next week, and that my life will spiral into a black hole of hopelessness, interminable unemployment, and poverty, leading to a humiliating collapse of any vestiges of self-reliance. Happily, though, my brain is free of those thoughts today. I will get some dishes done, study some French, and leave next week's worries in next week. At least in the short-term, perhaps that is releasing my fears to God. I know He has me safely in the palm of His hand; I can be content to enjoy this beautiful, relaxing day which He has constructed around me.
Usually, I have a Bible passage component at the end of my morning entry. Yesterday, though, I finished Ecclesiastes, and I have yet to decide which Book to read through next. Today happens also to be the last day of the devotional through which I have been going all this time, Peter Scazzero's Daily Office, so once this evening's entry is done I can start totally afresh tomorrow. Currently, I am leaning toward doing a review of the Psalms, one a day for the next 149 days. That seems like a long project, but I think it could be a very educational one. So far, I have three other Book-suggestions on Facebook, so I am keeping my mind open... We shall see what I eventually end up picking...
I feel quite peaceful in this moment. So far today I have had a quiet and relaxing time. I made a tasty breakfast, a parmesan-seasoned ham, cheese, and spinach sandwich made with olive-oil mayonnaise on an onion-bun, served warm and with milk. Then I listened to some fascinating Quirks And Quarks podcasts. After that I played around with my Carcassonne tiles (Last night I played three rounds with Denis; he won twice, but the time I won it was with a huge 50+ point margin), making an idealised map with no incomplete roads or cities, and one massive city in the centre. It has been a relaxing day up to now, and I have not been in much of a fearful mood at all. If I were to visit that frame of mind, I would be petrified that I will not make the minimum grade on my French test next week, and that my life will spiral into a black hole of hopelessness, interminable unemployment, and poverty, leading to a humiliating collapse of any vestiges of self-reliance. Happily, though, my brain is free of those thoughts today. I will get some dishes done, study some French, and leave next week's worries in next week. At least in the short-term, perhaps that is releasing my fears to God. I know He has me safely in the palm of His hand; I can be content to enjoy this beautiful, relaxing day which He has constructed around me.
Usually, I have a Bible passage component at the end of my morning entry. Yesterday, though, I finished Ecclesiastes, and I have yet to decide which Book to read through next. Today happens also to be the last day of the devotional through which I have been going all this time, Peter Scazzero's Daily Office, so once this evening's entry is done I can start totally afresh tomorrow. Currently, I am leaning toward doing a review of the Psalms, one a day for the next 149 days. That seems like a long project, but I think it could be a very educational one. So far, I have three other Book-suggestions on Facebook, so I am keeping my mind open... We shall see what I eventually end up picking...