Fuck This Sucks
So I'm going to use this as an outlet.
My parents won't let me do shiet. Honestly, that's what I feel.
My dad:
No boyfriend. No closed door. When there are boys, sit in the living room. If/when you go out, take a family member. No family member no going out. Shows only when I fell like it. Don't talk on the phone so much. Don't use the internet so much. You're friend calls too much. Illiminate the friends that bring problems. Raise your grades. If you don't want to go, you go anyway. You'll end up on the streets. Piercings are wrong. Tattoos are wrong. Fuck Bush. The system's corrupt. This country's a criminal. Don't go outside when it's dark. Ask before doing anything. Notify enough time ahead. Go to plays. Go excercise. Go to the park. You don't need friends. Why do you wear labels? Why do you have friends like that? Don't wear so much eyeliner. Don't go anywhere. Lock the door. Don't open it for anyone. Don't go with your cousins. She's crashed too many times. Don't ride with a teenage driver. Why do you want to hang out anyway? Walk the dog. Why are you sleeping during the day? Don't practice so late. Sleep before twelve. Why didn't you tell us? Don't put chemicals in your hair. It's wrong. Read the Encyclopedia. Don't be locked up in your room. Don't talk to your mom like that. Pendeja. Dumbass. Shut your mouth. Stop complaining. You don't do anything all day. Don't correct Carlos. You guys are like step-parents. It's not the coffee. I worked hard in school. I got an A+ in English even though I hated the subject. I got straight As. You look nice today. Let's all go. Let's go eat as a family. Where do you want to go today? Don't do your homework on weekends. Weekends are for going out. Do you want to rent movies? How are you? What did you eat? Who's going? What time is it? When will it be over? That's too late. What is it about? We need to get you a cell phone. That boy's ugly. He has a piercing. Don't sit so close. Come inside. No, don't go for a walk. Invite him to eat with us. All they do is do drugs there. Later you'll end up pregnant. There is no God.
It goes on.
My mom:
When is it? How long will you be there? No. Come now. Are you sure? It's Karma. In my next life... In a past life... Things will change. I see a whole other world. Everything is beautiful. Beauty comes from within. You could be the prettiest girl in the world, but if you say nothing, it means nothing. Don't talk to me like that. Do I always give you attitude when I talk to you? Do yoga. I give you the solution and you don't use it, then I can't help you. You stabbed me in the heart. Pendeja. I'm happy. I am in peace. Do you want to eat there? We're going. Let's all go. Does he want to go? Your brother will go with you. What do you want? So you want freedom. You look fifteen, but you think like an eighteen-year-old. When you did that, you lost my trust. I am not angry, but I have to be firm. This is the last call. You've been on for a long time. Ten more minutes. Come help me. Do the trash. How is Stephanie? Where were you? Liar. I was there. Oh. Are you sure? Did you eat? Eat. No, eat with everyone. At your age, I ate right. Drink plenty of water. Today is a beautiful day, isn't it? Be considerate. Work hard now, not later. I'm okay with you having a boyfriend, but your dad isn't. I want to give you more freedom, but your dad... I tried to cover for you, but it doesn't work out. It's God. No, it's too late. Why are you going all the way over there? Talk to me like that again, and I'll cut off the internet completely. Is he your boyfriend? Are you sure? Who's that? Why do you like boys with piercings and weird hair? There's nothing wrong with it. They're nice boys. Oh Stephanie. Ever since you met her, you've brought drama to the house. You are easily influenced. Why do you want to be alone? Why don't you want your brother there? What would you do alone? Why do you want to hang out with friends? We're social beings. He's so amazing. When I was a child, I sat quietly. They thought I was weird. Look at the successful people, and follow their path. We'll buy tickets. That's an ugly shirt. Control your emotions. Anger is bad. Don't cry. When your mad, you don't make the best decisions. We'll see. Ask your dad. Be patient. Don't wear so much eyeliner. Why don't you change your hair.
There are so many things...
A couldn't take the pressure. I asked my counselor to drop me. A social worker came to speak to us. I think things are going to get better. I hope so. I want to go out. I've been sneaking out, and it's been so much fun. I can't wait until I don't have to sneak out anymore. I love my parents, but I wish I could do more.
My parents won't let me do shiet. Honestly, that's what I feel.
My dad:
No boyfriend. No closed door. When there are boys, sit in the living room. If/when you go out, take a family member. No family member no going out. Shows only when I fell like it. Don't talk on the phone so much. Don't use the internet so much. You're friend calls too much. Illiminate the friends that bring problems. Raise your grades. If you don't want to go, you go anyway. You'll end up on the streets. Piercings are wrong. Tattoos are wrong. Fuck Bush. The system's corrupt. This country's a criminal. Don't go outside when it's dark. Ask before doing anything. Notify enough time ahead. Go to plays. Go excercise. Go to the park. You don't need friends. Why do you wear labels? Why do you have friends like that? Don't wear so much eyeliner. Don't go anywhere. Lock the door. Don't open it for anyone. Don't go with your cousins. She's crashed too many times. Don't ride with a teenage driver. Why do you want to hang out anyway? Walk the dog. Why are you sleeping during the day? Don't practice so late. Sleep before twelve. Why didn't you tell us? Don't put chemicals in your hair. It's wrong. Read the Encyclopedia. Don't be locked up in your room. Don't talk to your mom like that. Pendeja. Dumbass. Shut your mouth. Stop complaining. You don't do anything all day. Don't correct Carlos. You guys are like step-parents. It's not the coffee. I worked hard in school. I got an A+ in English even though I hated the subject. I got straight As. You look nice today. Let's all go. Let's go eat as a family. Where do you want to go today? Don't do your homework on weekends. Weekends are for going out. Do you want to rent movies? How are you? What did you eat? Who's going? What time is it? When will it be over? That's too late. What is it about? We need to get you a cell phone. That boy's ugly. He has a piercing. Don't sit so close. Come inside. No, don't go for a walk. Invite him to eat with us. All they do is do drugs there. Later you'll end up pregnant. There is no God.
It goes on.
My mom:
When is it? How long will you be there? No. Come now. Are you sure? It's Karma. In my next life... In a past life... Things will change. I see a whole other world. Everything is beautiful. Beauty comes from within. You could be the prettiest girl in the world, but if you say nothing, it means nothing. Don't talk to me like that. Do I always give you attitude when I talk to you? Do yoga. I give you the solution and you don't use it, then I can't help you. You stabbed me in the heart. Pendeja. I'm happy. I am in peace. Do you want to eat there? We're going. Let's all go. Does he want to go? Your brother will go with you. What do you want? So you want freedom. You look fifteen, but you think like an eighteen-year-old. When you did that, you lost my trust. I am not angry, but I have to be firm. This is the last call. You've been on for a long time. Ten more minutes. Come help me. Do the trash. How is Stephanie? Where were you? Liar. I was there. Oh. Are you sure? Did you eat? Eat. No, eat with everyone. At your age, I ate right. Drink plenty of water. Today is a beautiful day, isn't it? Be considerate. Work hard now, not later. I'm okay with you having a boyfriend, but your dad isn't. I want to give you more freedom, but your dad... I tried to cover for you, but it doesn't work out. It's God. No, it's too late. Why are you going all the way over there? Talk to me like that again, and I'll cut off the internet completely. Is he your boyfriend? Are you sure? Who's that? Why do you like boys with piercings and weird hair? There's nothing wrong with it. They're nice boys. Oh Stephanie. Ever since you met her, you've brought drama to the house. You are easily influenced. Why do you want to be alone? Why don't you want your brother there? What would you do alone? Why do you want to hang out with friends? We're social beings. He's so amazing. When I was a child, I sat quietly. They thought I was weird. Look at the successful people, and follow their path. We'll buy tickets. That's an ugly shirt. Control your emotions. Anger is bad. Don't cry. When your mad, you don't make the best decisions. We'll see. Ask your dad. Be patient. Don't wear so much eyeliner. Why don't you change your hair.
There are so many things...
A couldn't take the pressure. I asked my counselor to drop me. A social worker came to speak to us. I think things are going to get better. I hope so. I want to go out. I've been sneaking out, and it's been so much fun. I can't wait until I don't have to sneak out anymore. I love my parents, but I wish I could do more.