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hey!! omgsh.. that movie Hitch is hilarious.. if you havent seen it you should.. i dont know whats wrong lately but everyone keeps telling me that im acting weird?? i dunno.. i think i am but i just cant figure it out:( i dk.. i think that austin thinks im mad at him which im not!! but yea. thats that. . austin and josh have a bball game today!! good luck guyz.. i get to go get my nails done .. ~*FINALLY*~ ugh.. i think these past 2 days were the longest!! i think that everyone needs to just let me do my thing.. there has been a lot going on.. dont ask .. dont wanna talk about it.. it has nothing to do with the friendz promise! i just have a lotta stress lately that i am dealing with and i think my friendz think that i am mad at them or w/e.. i am like an outkast lately .. well thats how it feels but who knows.. im the one acting weird so how would i know.. i dk .. things just get to me when my friends told me that.. o well mb its just them or mb something is rele different about me i just cant figure it out. i hide things from my friendz a lot which i was rele ashamed of sorta and so i told a few friendz some things about whats going on and now i dont know what to do b/c everyeone is saying that i am acting so different and i just cant see whats different.. i mean i see that there is something weird ya know but i just cnt put my finger on it.. o well i'll figure it out someday soon hopefully someday rele rele soon .. it just feels like lately my friendz dont wanna be around me and its like i know that i was at the movies with katelyn anna and nina . . i just felt like i was an outcast friday nite for some reason .. i know i wasnt i mean austin was there and everything but something just didnt feel rite like he just didnt want to be there i dk.. but yea.. i think that, that nite i shouldnt have been such an asshole and shouldnt have made such a big deal about him and josh going out together to eat.. i shouldve just let them go and not made a big deal about it but instead i have to be such a bitch and do it newayz.. im such an asshole.. ugh.. i hate that.. i dont wanna be one of those "obsessive, ur mine and no1 elses" kind of g/f.. i hate when girlz are like that and then i go and do it.. ugh! i cnt stand it! im such a bad g/f.. i dk though.. i love austin so much and i dont want nething to happen to us and i think that the friday thing was a big mistake!! o well what happens happens.. :'( i have to go get the nails done or else i would stay and talk more about how i am such a bad g/f w/e bye yall ly!!! lotz.. and austin i love you so much.. i dont want you to be mad at me over that .. iknow u say u rnt but it doesnt seem like that.. i love you rele i do..