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Been shopping today with Lorraine and Sophie and Claire. Was fun, got a couple pretty bras. Spent a lot of money that I couldn't really afford. Should have dinner but I don't feel too hot, if I eat properly I think it might make me sick. See how it goes.
Was good to see people but was good to come home too. Too much time around people makes me edgy. Lots of talking about old friends with old problems. Made me uncomfortable and I don't know why. Well, I have ideas but I'm not sure exactly. Because it means I'm shoved out of the limelight? Because I have considerably less contact with the friends in question than I did/would like to/feel that I should? Because I can't help them? Because I'd just had too much time in a group of people and I hate crowds with a passion bordering on a mental disorder? All of the above?
I hate confrontation and bad feelings. Unfortunately had Tony bitching to me about Lorraine and later Lorraine bitching to me about Tony today. Made me sad.
I want a glass of water.
Was good to see people but was good to come home too. Too much time around people makes me edgy. Lots of talking about old friends with old problems. Made me uncomfortable and I don't know why. Well, I have ideas but I'm not sure exactly. Because it means I'm shoved out of the limelight? Because I have considerably less contact with the friends in question than I did/would like to/feel that I should? Because I can't help them? Because I'd just had too much time in a group of people and I hate crowds with a passion bordering on a mental disorder? All of the above?
I hate confrontation and bad feelings. Unfortunately had Tony bitching to me about Lorraine and later Lorraine bitching to me about Tony today. Made me sad.
I want a glass of water.