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Met the vicar today. Tried very hard not to swear in front of him. Failed, but tried very hard. My dad also failed so I felt less bad about it. He was asking what mum was like, as a wife and as a mother, and I was trying like hell to avoid the question until Andy summed up his experience with her as a mother as thoroughly wonderful, since childhood (complete with wonderful anecdotes about her not wanting him to grow up, and her telling him (when he was older) how much he'd like being an adult) and then turned to me and said "I expect your experience was similar". Well...no. I never felt that I could talk to her, I was never assured of her love, and the one time I did try to talk to her about something really important, she pushed me away.
But hey. Recently we were doing better. I was ignoring the parts of her that she messed up.
That sentance made sense to me. I'm drunk. This is my excuse.
I was angry with my brother for having better memories of her than I do. Or maybe jealous is the word, I dunno. Anyway.
The vicar seems a really nice guy.
I don't have any more wine so after this drunkenness will be sober for a while.
Gonna put DVDs on Amazon now. The DVDs that me and Gray both have, we're selling. In the cases where we both have one, we're selling whichever is the one-disc or otherwise less-special edition. In the cases where one of us has the regular edition and the other has the director's cut or extended or all that jazz, we're keeping both. Yep yep.
But hey. Recently we were doing better. I was ignoring the parts of her that she messed up.
That sentance made sense to me. I'm drunk. This is my excuse.
I was angry with my brother for having better memories of her than I do. Or maybe jealous is the word, I dunno. Anyway.
The vicar seems a really nice guy.
I don't have any more wine so after this drunkenness will be sober for a while.
Gonna put DVDs on Amazon now. The DVDs that me and Gray both have, we're selling. In the cases where we both have one, we're selling whichever is the one-disc or otherwise less-special edition. In the cases where one of us has the regular edition and the other has the director's cut or extended or all that jazz, we're keeping both. Yep yep.