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it's sad....but a part of me is bitter....bitter toward general people.
it's because of work.
it's because i work with a bunch of people who are so strikingly unaware that it's aggrevating.
their eyes are oblivious, inconsiderate, unsupportive, haughty, and ignorant.
grrrrr.
i am aware that really i should learn to deal with these humans...they are my bretheren, they are my brothers and sisters and i should try to help them become more aware...but i am still working on that myself so i get caught up and i want to strangle them...sometimes...
not that i ever would, most of them are really okay people...if they just dropped their egotism it would make a huge difference. oh well, someday i'm sure they will grow or go nowhere...expand or contract...
so i called in today...cause i am tired of work, and i was tired from lack of sleep, and i am just tired...so tired...
it's taugh for a person like me with that view to maintain a 'normal' life in this system and not want to blow things up....or blow myself up, hah.
i'll get through it like much else. and there are some genuine humans there at work...but i long to be with my friends, my lovers, my brothers and sisters...my family of the heart...where we share our lives and our loves and passions and we give hugs of caring embrace.
i love the world...i just need to love the pieces of it...the crazy humans chess pieces....and definately the pawns...cause they are there so that we might learn from their mistakes and simple moves...so we my become more aware of the complexities of the universe...open our minds to the infinity of the checkered squares stretching into the horizon.
*sigh*
it's because of work.
it's because i work with a bunch of people who are so strikingly unaware that it's aggrevating.
their eyes are oblivious, inconsiderate, unsupportive, haughty, and ignorant.
grrrrr.
i am aware that really i should learn to deal with these humans...they are my bretheren, they are my brothers and sisters and i should try to help them become more aware...but i am still working on that myself so i get caught up and i want to strangle them...sometimes...
not that i ever would, most of them are really okay people...if they just dropped their egotism it would make a huge difference. oh well, someday i'm sure they will grow or go nowhere...expand or contract...
so i called in today...cause i am tired of work, and i was tired from lack of sleep, and i am just tired...so tired...
it's taugh for a person like me with that view to maintain a 'normal' life in this system and not want to blow things up....or blow myself up, hah.
i'll get through it like much else. and there are some genuine humans there at work...but i long to be with my friends, my lovers, my brothers and sisters...my family of the heart...where we share our lives and our loves and passions and we give hugs of caring embrace.
i love the world...i just need to love the pieces of it...the crazy humans chess pieces....and definately the pawns...cause they are there so that we might learn from their mistakes and simple moves...so we my become more aware of the complexities of the universe...open our minds to the infinity of the checkered squares stretching into the horizon.
*sigh*