meh
so, it's Friday night. Friday night and i'm spending it at home, with mom and dad. Friday night with NOTHING to do. chats are dead, no movies, no cable, no cash. ugh... i am so FREAKIN' bored it's not even funny. lately i've really been feeling really trapped and bored and lonely. it sucks. i know a lot of you have been feeling the same way. maybe it's the holidays that are making me feel more disassociated than normal. i have no idea. i love our Christmas tree. it smells very nice and it's festive and it actually makes me feel a lot better when i see it.
so, i have a job interview on Monday with a staffing firm that's trying to get me a job as a game tester. i believe the company is Sony Computer Entertainment of America, or SCEA for short for you game geeks. moreso then the money and job, i need to get the fuck out of this house. like i said, i feel trapped and i need to socialize and not spend every waking moment of my life couped up in here or in the family room watching shitty non-cable. got my fingers crossed.
Brian emailed me on Thursday, and then i saw him Friday, which was yesterday. he told me he saw Return of the King at the Metreon as a guest of his brother-in-law. god, EA has the fucking most badass fringe benefits. we hung out and i did more modeling, though i should have been animating. i went over to the placement office and found one job that i figured i could do. then i drove home in the dark and the rain and the insane traffic.
today was a mix of good and bad. i met an old co-worker for breakfast at a reputable and delicious waffle house in town. i talked with her and her hubby about wrasslin' and just other nonsense, banter mostly. it was fun though and i had too much coffee that REALLY buzzed me. i had a Denver omlette and hashbrowns that were perfect. after that we wandered up the street and went into an antique store that they all frequent. i kinda wandered about aimlessly, glancing at this and that but mostly i was just blase about it all. if you know me at a store i'm not really interested in being in, i just kinda stick to the shopping person like a quiet, uninterested shadow until they're ready to leave. it was fun being around them though so that was a nice change. afterward, i walked back to my car and when i stepped off the sidewalk, i was paying attention to the traffic i was stepping into and not where my foot landed so i mildly sprained my anlke. ugh. and then to add insult to injury, i ended up having to drive on it right afterward. it's fun trying to drive straight while twisting in pain in your car seat.
the rest of the day was a wash. did nothing, bored as hell. i tried to get some animation work done but i just sat and stared at the interface for awhile and decided work was the LAST thing on my mind. so i fell asleep, that worked. but then i woke up to find, nothing to do. so, had some dinner, waited around and watched Angel, bemoaning the fact we no longer had any cable channels and then got online.
i really need to get that job.
so, i have a job interview on Monday with a staffing firm that's trying to get me a job as a game tester. i believe the company is Sony Computer Entertainment of America, or SCEA for short for you game geeks. moreso then the money and job, i need to get the fuck out of this house. like i said, i feel trapped and i need to socialize and not spend every waking moment of my life couped up in here or in the family room watching shitty non-cable. got my fingers crossed.
Brian emailed me on Thursday, and then i saw him Friday, which was yesterday. he told me he saw Return of the King at the Metreon as a guest of his brother-in-law. god, EA has the fucking most badass fringe benefits. we hung out and i did more modeling, though i should have been animating. i went over to the placement office and found one job that i figured i could do. then i drove home in the dark and the rain and the insane traffic.
today was a mix of good and bad. i met an old co-worker for breakfast at a reputable and delicious waffle house in town. i talked with her and her hubby about wrasslin' and just other nonsense, banter mostly. it was fun though and i had too much coffee that REALLY buzzed me. i had a Denver omlette and hashbrowns that were perfect. after that we wandered up the street and went into an antique store that they all frequent. i kinda wandered about aimlessly, glancing at this and that but mostly i was just blase about it all. if you know me at a store i'm not really interested in being in, i just kinda stick to the shopping person like a quiet, uninterested shadow until they're ready to leave. it was fun being around them though so that was a nice change. afterward, i walked back to my car and when i stepped off the sidewalk, i was paying attention to the traffic i was stepping into and not where my foot landed so i mildly sprained my anlke. ugh. and then to add insult to injury, i ended up having to drive on it right afterward. it's fun trying to drive straight while twisting in pain in your car seat.
the rest of the day was a wash. did nothing, bored as hell. i tried to get some animation work done but i just sat and stared at the interface for awhile and decided work was the LAST thing on my mind. so i fell asleep, that worked. but then i woke up to find, nothing to do. so, had some dinner, waited around and watched Angel, bemoaning the fact we no longer had any cable channels and then got online.
i really need to get that job.