Haru Haru- TOPJae
Title: Haru haru
Fandom: Big Bang
Rating:
Notes: For Tarryn who introduce me to them…
Warnings: angst, death…
TOP had seen Yunho holding his Jae and kissing him earlier that day. Bandmate or not Jae knew better then to cheat on him. He hit the wall and screamed.
When Jae came back, he said one word and slammed their bedroom door
Leave
He had, he’d waken up to find all of Jae’s things gone. He threw a picture of them against the wall and gone back to bed. He didn’t care…Jae was probably back at the DBSK house making out with Yunho…
Later he’d waken up alone….
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah~
Jae lay in a hospital crying, he hadn’t wanted this. He was alone…he didn’t mean to make TOP angry. Yunho had warned him TOP had seen him kiss his cheek, he knew TOP would be upset but he hadn’t expected him to be that angry to order him to leave.
My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
He’d wanted to tell him then. Now he decided it was better this way, he knew from Yunho that G. Dragon had always loved TOP hopefully that love could help TOP. He didn’t want to leave him but he was dying. He didn’t want to leave TOP but he had no choice…
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)
G. Dragon told him too late…he knelt beside Jae’s body holding his hand crying, “I’m sorry…I’m sorry…”
Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless
Jae floated there watching him neither here nor there stuck somewhere in between staring at his body and TOP with confusion.
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Then he realized he was dead. A ghost…he tried to get TOP’s attention.
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
TOP lay in there bed alone…
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
Jae watch worried, this wasn’t healthy….
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
He whispered laying next to him,
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
TOP understood everything now…it hurt but he understood. Jae was in a better place, free from the pain and suffering of this life…
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh my love I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye…
He wished he could say…
If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
Jae missed him and came to visit worried about TOP…
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
He saw TOP with G. Dragon and smiled…
Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Jae kissed TOP softly,
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
Jae left for the last time thinking,
I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
Its was the fifth anniversary of Jae’s death and he still missed him…still loved him. He hoped Jae was happy now…
It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)
G. Dragon hugged him, he hated seeing TOP unhappy but he knew that TOP loved him. Not the same as he’d loved Jae but love was love. He knew that TOP and Jae would meet again. They were the ones that were meant to be, when he died he’d let Jae have TOP. Jae had asked him to love TOP for him and make sure he didn’t give up on live.
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
TOP rested his hand on the stone that bore the words, ‘Kim Jaejoong loved by all who knew him…’
I pray for you
He whispered in his heart,
Oh my love I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye
Fandom: Big Bang
Rating:
Notes: For Tarryn who introduce me to them…
Warnings: angst, death…
TOP had seen Yunho holding his Jae and kissing him earlier that day. Bandmate or not Jae knew better then to cheat on him. He hit the wall and screamed.
When Jae came back, he said one word and slammed their bedroom door
Leave
He had, he’d waken up to find all of Jae’s things gone. He threw a picture of them against the wall and gone back to bed. He didn’t care…Jae was probably back at the DBSK house making out with Yunho…
Later he’d waken up alone….
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah~
Jae lay in a hospital crying, he hadn’t wanted this. He was alone…he didn’t mean to make TOP angry. Yunho had warned him TOP had seen him kiss his cheek, he knew TOP would be upset but he hadn’t expected him to be that angry to order him to leave.
My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
He’d wanted to tell him then. Now he decided it was better this way, he knew from Yunho that G. Dragon had always loved TOP hopefully that love could help TOP. He didn’t want to leave him but he was dying. He didn’t want to leave TOP but he had no choice…
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)
G. Dragon told him too late…he knelt beside Jae’s body holding his hand crying, “I’m sorry…I’m sorry…”
Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless
Jae floated there watching him neither here nor there stuck somewhere in between staring at his body and TOP with confusion.
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Then he realized he was dead. A ghost…he tried to get TOP’s attention.
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
TOP lay in there bed alone…
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
Jae watch worried, this wasn’t healthy….
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
He whispered laying next to him,
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
TOP understood everything now…it hurt but he understood. Jae was in a better place, free from the pain and suffering of this life…
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh my love I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye…
He wished he could say…
If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
Jae missed him and came to visit worried about TOP…
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
He saw TOP with G. Dragon and smiled…
Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Jae kissed TOP softly,
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
Jae left for the last time thinking,
I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
Its was the fifth anniversary of Jae’s death and he still missed him…still loved him. He hoped Jae was happy now…
It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)
G. Dragon hugged him, he hated seeing TOP unhappy but he knew that TOP loved him. Not the same as he’d loved Jae but love was love. He knew that TOP and Jae would meet again. They were the ones that were meant to be, when he died he’d let Jae have TOP. Jae had asked him to love TOP for him and make sure he didn’t give up on live.
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
TOP rested his hand on the stone that bore the words, ‘Kim Jaejoong loved by all who knew him…’
I pray for you
He whispered in his heart,
Oh my love I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye