au fic cherish ch16
Fic Title: Cherish
Title: Ch. 16
Pairings: nottipi
JE Groups: NewS
Genre: AU
Rating: R for the usual reasons- sex, language and violence.
Notes: Don't kill me if you hate it, it is my first real attempt at an AU fic series. I apologize for the weird font it's all screwy I'll fix it tomorrow when I'm at home. I'm at grandma's the home of the evil computer that ate Cherish Ch.12 and 13 last time I was here.
Characters:
Koyama Keiichiro- Kei, the dad
Koyama Tomahisa- also known as Yamapi, a college student
koyama Yuya- affectionately known as Tesshi
Kato Shigeaki- Shige/Gesshi, Kei's boyfriend/live-in-lover, raising his cousin's son
Masuda Takahisa- dubbed Massu by Tesshi as a child, lives with them, Tesshi's best friend
Nishikido Ryo- Yamapi's boyfriend of many years[edit] I hadn't a clue that Ryo lived here too until chapter 2 or that he was Shige's foster son...six NewS members in one house sounds more then a little crowded no matter how big it is.
Uchi Hiroki- A worried older brother who tries to relocate his brother after a tragedy.
Uchi Hironori- was a victim of a horrible crime, suffers from PTSD
Prologue- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1566 9.html
Ch.1- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1596 4.html
Ch.2- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1654 4.html
Ch.3- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1675 4.html
Ch.4- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1735 8.html
Ch.5- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1807 3.html
Ch.6- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1840 3.html
Ch.7- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2010 9.html
Ch.8- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2049 0.html
Ch.9- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2333 3.html
Ch.9b- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2448 9.html
Ch,10- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2573 0.html
Ch.11a- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2622 9.html
Ch.11b- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2651 6.html
Ch.12 http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2665 3.html
Ch.13 http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/36244.html
Ch.14 http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/36581.html
Ch.15 http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/37618.html
Notti lay on his back staring up at the sky……it was so nice to away from people.
Yamapi lay on his side; it was nice to see Notti so relaxed. They were having their picnic under the tree that held his old tree fort. No one was ever around and after the stressful experience at the store Notti had needed to get away from people. His friends kept coming up and being loud, he had tried to avoid them but it only got worse. He had ended up throwing a wad of cash at an old classmate who was working the register. He felt so bad for putting Notti through that.
Notti sighed; it was so pretty out here, that he didn’t miss the city at all. It was peaceful and quite it was hard to believe this was Yamapi’s backyard……it was huge.
Yamapi liked to look at Notti……he was so pretty sometimes.
Notti felt his stare, he rolled over, "Is there something on my face……"
Yamapi shook his head, "No, you’re not smiling……I thought you wanted a picnic. Did I miss something……"
Notti grinned, "Everything is fine……I was just thinking.
"About what……" Yamapi asked.
Notti laughed, "About how much I love it here……it’s so peaceful and I have you."
Yamapi felt his heart swell at that comment, he didn't know exactly what Notti meant but he was happy that Notti enjoyed his company.
Notti sensed a tension between them, it wasn’t an angry tension…he wasn’t sure what it was. He saw something that shined in Yamapi’s eyes…something that made him feel alive for the first time in a long time.
Yamapi smiled at him, he wanted to take care of him forever, to protect him, to love him…… he gasped at that thought, it scared him……with the pain that Notti carried inside he knew that a relationship with him beyond friendship was almost impossible.
Notti saw the happiness replaced by a deep sadness; he was shocked by the change…
Yamapi needed a moment alone, he stood quickly, "Notti, I forgot something…I’ll be back in a minute.
Notti watched him leave with a heavy heart did he do something wrong…was he annoying Yamapi?
Yamapi leaned against his car with his eyes closed; he wanted to cry…he hadn't expected to fall in love with Notti. He opened his trunk and pulled out his battered sketchbook. He walked back to the blanket and sat on it cross-legged.
Notti looked up as he heard him come back…
Yamapi pulled the mechanical pencil from the spiral binding and opened it to a clean page.
Notti was leaning against the tree, he wanted to capture this moment if nothing else so he would remember.
Notti stared at him, what was he doing…
Yamapi sketched Notti carefully; he was a little out of practice, he hadn’t tried to draw since school got out. He took advanced drawing and painting classes to fulfill his art requirements. He erased a few lines here and there, added a different angle or a thicker line. He was shocked at how good it was and he had only been working on it for fifteen minutes it needed some more work but it wasn’t too terrible. He held out the sketchbook for Notti to see.
Notti gasped, it was a drawing of him…leaning on the tree thinking…Yamapi was good, it looked just like him. He saw the barest hint of a smile but the eyes were so sad…as if they had seen the worst this world could offer. He looked at the older man, "I didn’t know you drew…you’re good."
Yamapi shrugged, "It isn’t finished yet…it still needs more time. I did it too fast so it needs some fine-tuning.
Notti shook his head, "Its perfect…can I…can I have this…"
Yamapi frowned, "You want it now…but it’s not finished."
Notti smiled, "I love it just the way it is…its better then a photograph. You managed to capture more then a camera."
Yamapi shrugged, "It’s just the way I see things…sometimes I see things that others don’t want be seen. It used to drive people in high school when I sketched them; they said I could see into their souls. It’s the eyes, they can say so much if you know how to read them."
Notti nodded, "I can see that, I look almost happy but there is so much sadness in my eyes…"
Yamapi placed a comforting hand on Notti’s knee, "Its okay…I just drew what I saw, I didn’t mean to make you upset.""
Notti frozen, he didn’t like being touched…but there was so much compassion in Yamapi’s eyes. He tried hard not to be afraid, he didn’t want to be afraid of his friend……he needed him perhaps more then he should. Maybe he didn’t mind it when Yamapi touched him. He let him hold him while he slept…hug him when he needed it…but where Yamapi’s hand was scared him. He really didn’t like to be touched below the waist. He shoved Yamapi’s hand away, dropped the sketchbook and leaned forward to clutch Yamapi tightly.
Yamapi was a little taken aback by Notti’s actions.
Notti felt calm as soon as Yamapi wrapped him in his arms.
Yamapi whispered, "Are you okay? Did I scare you..."
Notti nodded, "But only a little."
Yamapi rubbed his back gently, "I wasn’t thinking, I only wanted to make you feel better."
Notti looked up at him, "Next time, can you just hold me...that doesn’t worry me as much as your hand on my knee did."
Yamapi held him close, he wanted to hold him anyway...this was the closest he would ever get to what he wanted.
Notti liked how his body molded to Yamapi’s, he always felt safe in his arms. Every time he was scared, he looked to him for comfort. He laid his head on Yamapi’s shoulder for a moment, he needed a nap, he was exhausted as he slipped out of Yamapi’s arms.
Yamapi watched as Notti curled up, he moved over to throw an arm around him.
Notti felt Yamapi’s warm presence against as he fell asleep.
To sleep perchance to dream...Notti couldn’t remember where he’d heard that before but it sounded familiar as he opened his eyes to see Yamapi smiling down at him.
Yamapi grinned, "Morning, beautiful."
Notti felt himself blush and protest, "I’m not beautiful..."
Yamapi nodded, "Oh yes, you are sweetheart."
Notti shivered at the uttering of that endearment.
Yamapi reached over to pull him closer.
Notti started as he finally realized they were both naked.
Yamapi murmured, "You’re nervous now? You were pretty sure of yourself when you came onto me last night."
Notti couldn’t believe he’d actually do that...but they were both naked and he didn’t hurt at all. Did that mean he hurt Yamapi...he certainly didn’t act hurt.
Yamapi played with his hair, whispering, "As much as I would like to make love to you, I know you’re not ready for that. I can wait, besides you’re getting really good, I’d hate to take that away from you."
Notti blushed, "What am I good at..."
Yamapi kissed and said softly against his lips, "Making love to me, although that wasn’t one of your better kisses."
Notti pressed his forehead to Yamapi’s chest, this isn’t real...this can’t be happening...he thought until his hand moved of it’s own accord and began stroking Yamapi.
Yamapi’s eyes closed and he moaned loudly, "Nori..."
Notti’d never hear his name called like that before, Yamapi made his name sound like sex.
Yamapi’s name fell from his own lips, "Hisa..."
"Nori...please I want you."
Those words sent a quick jolt to his groin, making him very aware of how hard he was. He must be good as this or Yamapi wouldn’t be begging for this. He somehow knew what to do...he grabbed the lube from the nightstand and squeezed some into his palm. The coldness of it surprised him as he ran his fingers in it to get them covered entirely. He watched Yamapi as he slowly pressed a finger inside him.
Yamapi moaned, "Nori..."
Notti worked himself into a rhythm that satisfied both of them. As the second finger entered his lover, Yamapi began moved with him. By the third finger, he thought Yamapi was wide enough for him. Yamapi rolled to his knees as he withdrew his fingers. Notti moved closer and slowly thrust inside. He felt the warm embrace as Yamapi’s body opened to receive him. He groaned, "Hisa…" as he watched Yamapi moved to fist himself, it was hot.
A sharp pain woke him; he realized that he really was hard...seeing his protector like that had been hot. He wanted him...he’d never wanted anyone before ...the only thing was did Yamapi want him? He gently lifted Yamapi’s arm and moved to face him as he let the arm fall on top of him again. He wasn’t an artist but he gazed at the older man, admiring his fine features and the way the sun made him glow in the fading light. he couldn’t help it, he pressed his lips to Yamapi’s in a tentative kiss.
Yamapi felt that even in his sleep, he mumbled, "Nori..."
Notti froze just above Yamapi’s lips, did he just heard what he thought he heard? He’d never felt so nervous or so sure about what he wanted. He reached to take Yamapi’s hand in his and kissed it.
Yamapi felt lips gently brush his skin as he neared consciousness. He’d fallen asleep with Notti in his arms...did that mean Notti was kissing him?
Notti heard him stir, he would have thought he’d be afraid but he was excited and was getting braver. He leaned over to kiss him again...
Yamapi felt a pair of unfamiliar lips on his; he could sense Notti’s closeness and kissed him back sleepily.
Notti was a little worried about Yamapi’s reaction but when he felt Yamapi kiss him back, he felt better.
Yamapi didn’t want to scare him when he was being so brave and honest, he opened his eyes slowly and smiled, "It’s been a long time since anyone woke me up like that. I didn’t realize how much I missed it until now...you should do that more often."
Notti blushed, "Really..."
Yamapi nodded as he cupped his face, "Really, you liked me that much that despite everything you’ve been through you’re willing to trust me..."
Notti bit his lip, "I’ve trusted you since we met...I wouldn’t have let you touch me if I didn’t sense I could. You’re gentle and patient...and I’ve come to cared deeply for you...I thinking I’m falling for you. I don’t know how we can make this work with my past..."
Yamapi remembered the story Notti had told him about his rape, "I could teach you either what it feels like when it’s done right and with love or...I could teach you how to make love to me. I’ve never let anyone top me before but if it’s the only way we can be that close...I’ll let you. If you trust me enough to love me I trust you enough to make love to me."
Notti frowned, "What about our age difference..."
Yamapi kissed him, "If it doesn’t matter to you, if doesn’t matter to me. Besides Uchi said your birthday was coming up soon anyway. Not many seniors can claim high school boyfriends anyway."
Notti wanted their first time to be special... "Can we do this in my room...I don’t want to do it outside...it would be too open and terrifying.."
Yamapi kissed the top of his head, "It’s your show...we’ll do things your way. If you want a bed we can do a bed...."
Notti blushed; he was a virgin only because he’d never wanted to do it before...
Yamapi threw the leftovers in bags and pulled Notti laughing to the house next door. He dropped the food inside the door. He let Notti take the lead from there, "go ahead..."
Notti took him by the hand and led him upstairs to the bed they’d been sharing. He turned to Yamapi and fingered his shirt, "May I..."
Yamapi nodded, "I’m letting you do want you want...no rush okay sweetheart...."
Notti bit his lip; he’d forgotten how much he liked being called that.
Yamapi closed his eyes as Notti slowly pushed his shirt off.
Notti had never really looked another guy before...Yamapi was built...he silently traced the six-pack that adorned Yamapi’s abs. He rubbed one of Yamapi’s nipples with his thumb in gentle circles.
Yamapi gasped, that was unexpectedly erotic...if he didn’t know better he’d almost question Notti’s virginity.
Notti licked Yamapi’s neck leaving a wet streak on his skin, he gently tugged on Yamapi’s navel piercing...he hadn’t seen it before.
Even Ryo hadn’t done that...Notti was a good tease.
Notti swallowed as he moved his hand to cup Yamapi, he didn’t realized he was already hard until now.
Yamapi moaned, "Nori..." as he rubbed against Notti’s hand.
Notti stroked him gently through the shorts, he was begging again and this time it was for real. He bit his lip, "I don’t know what I’m supposed to do next...help me..."
Yamapi stripped out of his own shorts and lay on the bed, he whispered hoarsely, "There’s still lube on the table in the next room go get it."
Notti ran...
Yamapi waited for him to leave he didn’t want Notti to think he was hurting him. He had never done this before either...he suckled on his fingers and then pressed them into himself the feeling was strange but not entirely unpleasant. He was loose around two fingers when Notti came flying into the room.
Notti crawled unto the bed next to Yamapi, "I pour some into my hand right..."
Yamapi nodded.
Notti squeezed it into his hand like he had in his dream, he coated his fingers slowly. He bit his lip as he did exactly what he had in the dream...he pressed one inside Yamapi’s entrance.
Yamapi was glad he had prepped himself first so Notti wouldn’t have to know how painful it could be at times...he didn’t need to know it hurt even when done right..
Notti nervously slipped in a second...
Yamapi wanted to feel him inside him now...he rode Notti’s fingers they were just as much a part of him as the member he hoped would be fucking him later.
Notti watched Yamapi begin riding him...it was just as hot is reality as it was in his dreams...
Yamapi groaned, "Just one more..."
Notti nodded as he pressed a third finger inside the widening channel.
Yamapi closed his eyes, he was afraid this would hurt and he didn’t want Notti to see it in his eyes. He breathed...he just breathed...
Notti felt Yamapi’s narrow channel widening, he whispered nervously "What now..."
Yamapi answered quietly, "Now you enter me...just go slow I’ve never bottomed before."
Notti frowned, "Don’t you have to face the other way..."
Yamapi shook his head, "You can but I don’t want to that image, it brings you pain and I don’t want to bring that into bed with us anymore then we have to" He spread himself as wide as he could as he wrapped his legs as far up Notti’s back as he could reach, "Now...please...Nori..."
Notti nodded as he moved closer and pulled Yamapi onto him.
Yamapi relaxed and let Notti lead some more.
Notti sheathed himself as deep into Yamapi as he could go.
Yamapi gasped he could feel Notti’s balls right against his ass, Notti went in deep...he tried to move a little on the high schooler’s hardness.
Notti groaned as Yamapi rode him, he was inside Yamapi...actually inside him and he wasn’t hurting him.
Yamapi screamed, Notti found it...he actually found it...he always known it was there but he’d never felt this feeling. He moaned, "Nori..."
Notti worried for a moment but the look on Yamapi’s face was ecstasy, he’d managed to give him pleasure.
Yamapi needed release desperately; he reached for himself.
Notti couldn’t believe it, Yamapi was actually going to do it... he was going to fist himself.
Yamapi could hardly breathe with Notti pounding into him as he rode him as hard as he could...when he thrust into his own hand; he nearly lost it...
Notti could see how close Yamapi was to coming and he exploded.
Yamapi whimpered as he felt Notti coat him with the juices of their passion. He came hard and fast all over them both.
Notti felt the warm splash as Yamapi sprayed him with white.
Yamapi hugged him, "You were great...I loved it..."
Notti grinned, "I gave you everything I could...."
Yamapi nodded, "I know...and I took what you gave me. I’m glad I was the one who could teach you how good this can be...it feels different to be on the receiving end but I didn’t mind. I kind of liked it."
Notti whispered, "Can we just stay like this for awhile...I’m never felt so close to someone and I don’t want to lose this connection."
Yamapi smiled, "I don’t want you to move but we could lie down..."
Notti leaned them over until Yamapi was lying on the bed and he was sprawled out on top of him.
Yamapi held him tight, "I love you, Nori..."
Notti yawned, "I love you too, Hisa..."
Title: Ch. 16
Pairings: nottipi
JE Groups: NewS
Genre: AU
Rating: R for the usual reasons- sex, language and violence.
Notes: Don't kill me if you hate it, it is my first real attempt at an AU fic series. I apologize for the weird font it's all screwy I'll fix it tomorrow when I'm at home. I'm at grandma's the home of the evil computer that ate Cherish Ch.12 and 13 last time I was here.
Characters:
Koyama Keiichiro- Kei, the dad
Koyama Tomahisa- also known as Yamapi, a college student
koyama Yuya- affectionately known as Tesshi
Kato Shigeaki- Shige/Gesshi, Kei's boyfriend/live-in-lover, raising his cousin's son
Masuda Takahisa- dubbed Massu by Tesshi as a child, lives with them, Tesshi's best friend
Nishikido Ryo- Yamapi's boyfriend of many years[edit] I hadn't a clue that Ryo lived here too until chapter 2 or that he was Shige's foster son...six NewS members in one house sounds more then a little crowded no matter how big it is.
Uchi Hiroki- A worried older brother who tries to relocate his brother after a tragedy.
Uchi Hironori- was a victim of a horrible crime, suffers from PTSD
Prologue- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1566 9.html
Ch.1- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1596 4.html
Ch.2- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1654 4.html
Ch.3- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1675 4.html
Ch.4- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1735 8.html
Ch.5- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1807 3.html
Ch.6- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/1840 3.html
Ch.7- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2010 9.html
Ch.8- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2049 0.html
Ch.9- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2333 3.html
Ch.9b- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2448 9.html
Ch,10- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2573 0.html
Ch.11a- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2622 9.html
Ch.11b- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2651 6.html
Ch.12 http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/2665 3.html
Ch.13 http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/36244.html
Ch.14 http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/36581.html
Ch.15 http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/37618.html
Notti lay on his back staring up at the sky……it was so nice to away from people.
Yamapi lay on his side; it was nice to see Notti so relaxed. They were having their picnic under the tree that held his old tree fort. No one was ever around and after the stressful experience at the store Notti had needed to get away from people. His friends kept coming up and being loud, he had tried to avoid them but it only got worse. He had ended up throwing a wad of cash at an old classmate who was working the register. He felt so bad for putting Notti through that.
Notti sighed; it was so pretty out here, that he didn’t miss the city at all. It was peaceful and quite it was hard to believe this was Yamapi’s backyard……it was huge.
Yamapi liked to look at Notti……he was so pretty sometimes.
Notti felt his stare, he rolled over, "Is there something on my face……"
Yamapi shook his head, "No, you’re not smiling……I thought you wanted a picnic. Did I miss something……"
Notti grinned, "Everything is fine……I was just thinking.
"About what……" Yamapi asked.
Notti laughed, "About how much I love it here……it’s so peaceful and I have you."
Yamapi felt his heart swell at that comment, he didn't know exactly what Notti meant but he was happy that Notti enjoyed his company.
Notti sensed a tension between them, it wasn’t an angry tension…he wasn’t sure what it was. He saw something that shined in Yamapi’s eyes…something that made him feel alive for the first time in a long time.
Yamapi smiled at him, he wanted to take care of him forever, to protect him, to love him…… he gasped at that thought, it scared him……with the pain that Notti carried inside he knew that a relationship with him beyond friendship was almost impossible.
Notti saw the happiness replaced by a deep sadness; he was shocked by the change…
Yamapi needed a moment alone, he stood quickly, "Notti, I forgot something…I’ll be back in a minute.
Notti watched him leave with a heavy heart did he do something wrong…was he annoying Yamapi?
Yamapi leaned against his car with his eyes closed; he wanted to cry…he hadn't expected to fall in love with Notti. He opened his trunk and pulled out his battered sketchbook. He walked back to the blanket and sat on it cross-legged.
Notti looked up as he heard him come back…
Yamapi pulled the mechanical pencil from the spiral binding and opened it to a clean page.
Notti was leaning against the tree, he wanted to capture this moment if nothing else so he would remember.
Notti stared at him, what was he doing…
Yamapi sketched Notti carefully; he was a little out of practice, he hadn’t tried to draw since school got out. He took advanced drawing and painting classes to fulfill his art requirements. He erased a few lines here and there, added a different angle or a thicker line. He was shocked at how good it was and he had only been working on it for fifteen minutes it needed some more work but it wasn’t too terrible. He held out the sketchbook for Notti to see.
Notti gasped, it was a drawing of him…leaning on the tree thinking…Yamapi was good, it looked just like him. He saw the barest hint of a smile but the eyes were so sad…as if they had seen the worst this world could offer. He looked at the older man, "I didn’t know you drew…you’re good."
Yamapi shrugged, "It isn’t finished yet…it still needs more time. I did it too fast so it needs some fine-tuning.
Notti shook his head, "Its perfect…can I…can I have this…"
Yamapi frowned, "You want it now…but it’s not finished."
Notti smiled, "I love it just the way it is…its better then a photograph. You managed to capture more then a camera."
Yamapi shrugged, "It’s just the way I see things…sometimes I see things that others don’t want be seen. It used to drive people in high school when I sketched them; they said I could see into their souls. It’s the eyes, they can say so much if you know how to read them."
Notti nodded, "I can see that, I look almost happy but there is so much sadness in my eyes…"
Yamapi placed a comforting hand on Notti’s knee, "Its okay…I just drew what I saw, I didn’t mean to make you upset.""
Notti frozen, he didn’t like being touched…but there was so much compassion in Yamapi’s eyes. He tried hard not to be afraid, he didn’t want to be afraid of his friend……he needed him perhaps more then he should. Maybe he didn’t mind it when Yamapi touched him. He let him hold him while he slept…hug him when he needed it…but where Yamapi’s hand was scared him. He really didn’t like to be touched below the waist. He shoved Yamapi’s hand away, dropped the sketchbook and leaned forward to clutch Yamapi tightly.
Yamapi was a little taken aback by Notti’s actions.
Notti felt calm as soon as Yamapi wrapped him in his arms.
Yamapi whispered, "Are you okay? Did I scare you..."
Notti nodded, "But only a little."
Yamapi rubbed his back gently, "I wasn’t thinking, I only wanted to make you feel better."
Notti looked up at him, "Next time, can you just hold me...that doesn’t worry me as much as your hand on my knee did."
Yamapi held him close, he wanted to hold him anyway...this was the closest he would ever get to what he wanted.
Notti liked how his body molded to Yamapi’s, he always felt safe in his arms. Every time he was scared, he looked to him for comfort. He laid his head on Yamapi’s shoulder for a moment, he needed a nap, he was exhausted as he slipped out of Yamapi’s arms.
Yamapi watched as Notti curled up, he moved over to throw an arm around him.
Notti felt Yamapi’s warm presence against as he fell asleep.
To sleep perchance to dream...Notti couldn’t remember where he’d heard that before but it sounded familiar as he opened his eyes to see Yamapi smiling down at him.
Yamapi grinned, "Morning, beautiful."
Notti felt himself blush and protest, "I’m not beautiful..."
Yamapi nodded, "Oh yes, you are sweetheart."
Notti shivered at the uttering of that endearment.
Yamapi reached over to pull him closer.
Notti started as he finally realized they were both naked.
Yamapi murmured, "You’re nervous now? You were pretty sure of yourself when you came onto me last night."
Notti couldn’t believe he’d actually do that...but they were both naked and he didn’t hurt at all. Did that mean he hurt Yamapi...he certainly didn’t act hurt.
Yamapi played with his hair, whispering, "As much as I would like to make love to you, I know you’re not ready for that. I can wait, besides you’re getting really good, I’d hate to take that away from you."
Notti blushed, "What am I good at..."
Yamapi kissed and said softly against his lips, "Making love to me, although that wasn’t one of your better kisses."
Notti pressed his forehead to Yamapi’s chest, this isn’t real...this can’t be happening...he thought until his hand moved of it’s own accord and began stroking Yamapi.
Yamapi’s eyes closed and he moaned loudly, "Nori..."
Notti’d never hear his name called like that before, Yamapi made his name sound like sex.
Yamapi’s name fell from his own lips, "Hisa..."
"Nori...please I want you."
Those words sent a quick jolt to his groin, making him very aware of how hard he was. He must be good as this or Yamapi wouldn’t be begging for this. He somehow knew what to do...he grabbed the lube from the nightstand and squeezed some into his palm. The coldness of it surprised him as he ran his fingers in it to get them covered entirely. He watched Yamapi as he slowly pressed a finger inside him.
Yamapi moaned, "Nori..."
Notti worked himself into a rhythm that satisfied both of them. As the second finger entered his lover, Yamapi began moved with him. By the third finger, he thought Yamapi was wide enough for him. Yamapi rolled to his knees as he withdrew his fingers. Notti moved closer and slowly thrust inside. He felt the warm embrace as Yamapi’s body opened to receive him. He groaned, "Hisa…" as he watched Yamapi moved to fist himself, it was hot.
A sharp pain woke him; he realized that he really was hard...seeing his protector like that had been hot. He wanted him...he’d never wanted anyone before ...the only thing was did Yamapi want him? He gently lifted Yamapi’s arm and moved to face him as he let the arm fall on top of him again. He wasn’t an artist but he gazed at the older man, admiring his fine features and the way the sun made him glow in the fading light. he couldn’t help it, he pressed his lips to Yamapi’s in a tentative kiss.
Yamapi felt that even in his sleep, he mumbled, "Nori..."
Notti froze just above Yamapi’s lips, did he just heard what he thought he heard? He’d never felt so nervous or so sure about what he wanted. He reached to take Yamapi’s hand in his and kissed it.
Yamapi felt lips gently brush his skin as he neared consciousness. He’d fallen asleep with Notti in his arms...did that mean Notti was kissing him?
Notti heard him stir, he would have thought he’d be afraid but he was excited and was getting braver. He leaned over to kiss him again...
Yamapi felt a pair of unfamiliar lips on his; he could sense Notti’s closeness and kissed him back sleepily.
Notti was a little worried about Yamapi’s reaction but when he felt Yamapi kiss him back, he felt better.
Yamapi didn’t want to scare him when he was being so brave and honest, he opened his eyes slowly and smiled, "It’s been a long time since anyone woke me up like that. I didn’t realize how much I missed it until now...you should do that more often."
Notti blushed, "Really..."
Yamapi nodded as he cupped his face, "Really, you liked me that much that despite everything you’ve been through you’re willing to trust me..."
Notti bit his lip, "I’ve trusted you since we met...I wouldn’t have let you touch me if I didn’t sense I could. You’re gentle and patient...and I’ve come to cared deeply for you...I thinking I’m falling for you. I don’t know how we can make this work with my past..."
Yamapi remembered the story Notti had told him about his rape, "I could teach you either what it feels like when it’s done right and with love or...I could teach you how to make love to me. I’ve never let anyone top me before but if it’s the only way we can be that close...I’ll let you. If you trust me enough to love me I trust you enough to make love to me."
Notti frowned, "What about our age difference..."
Yamapi kissed him, "If it doesn’t matter to you, if doesn’t matter to me. Besides Uchi said your birthday was coming up soon anyway. Not many seniors can claim high school boyfriends anyway."
Notti wanted their first time to be special... "Can we do this in my room...I don’t want to do it outside...it would be too open and terrifying.."
Yamapi kissed the top of his head, "It’s your show...we’ll do things your way. If you want a bed we can do a bed...."
Notti blushed; he was a virgin only because he’d never wanted to do it before...
Yamapi threw the leftovers in bags and pulled Notti laughing to the house next door. He dropped the food inside the door. He let Notti take the lead from there, "go ahead..."
Notti took him by the hand and led him upstairs to the bed they’d been sharing. He turned to Yamapi and fingered his shirt, "May I..."
Yamapi nodded, "I’m letting you do want you want...no rush okay sweetheart...."
Notti bit his lip; he’d forgotten how much he liked being called that.
Yamapi closed his eyes as Notti slowly pushed his shirt off.
Notti had never really looked another guy before...Yamapi was built...he silently traced the six-pack that adorned Yamapi’s abs. He rubbed one of Yamapi’s nipples with his thumb in gentle circles.
Yamapi gasped, that was unexpectedly erotic...if he didn’t know better he’d almost question Notti’s virginity.
Notti licked Yamapi’s neck leaving a wet streak on his skin, he gently tugged on Yamapi’s navel piercing...he hadn’t seen it before.
Even Ryo hadn’t done that...Notti was a good tease.
Notti swallowed as he moved his hand to cup Yamapi, he didn’t realized he was already hard until now.
Yamapi moaned, "Nori..." as he rubbed against Notti’s hand.
Notti stroked him gently through the shorts, he was begging again and this time it was for real. He bit his lip, "I don’t know what I’m supposed to do next...help me..."
Yamapi stripped out of his own shorts and lay on the bed, he whispered hoarsely, "There’s still lube on the table in the next room go get it."
Notti ran...
Yamapi waited for him to leave he didn’t want Notti to think he was hurting him. He had never done this before either...he suckled on his fingers and then pressed them into himself the feeling was strange but not entirely unpleasant. He was loose around two fingers when Notti came flying into the room.
Notti crawled unto the bed next to Yamapi, "I pour some into my hand right..."
Yamapi nodded.
Notti squeezed it into his hand like he had in his dream, he coated his fingers slowly. He bit his lip as he did exactly what he had in the dream...he pressed one inside Yamapi’s entrance.
Yamapi was glad he had prepped himself first so Notti wouldn’t have to know how painful it could be at times...he didn’t need to know it hurt even when done right..
Notti nervously slipped in a second...
Yamapi wanted to feel him inside him now...he rode Notti’s fingers they were just as much a part of him as the member he hoped would be fucking him later.
Notti watched Yamapi begin riding him...it was just as hot is reality as it was in his dreams...
Yamapi groaned, "Just one more..."
Notti nodded as he pressed a third finger inside the widening channel.
Yamapi closed his eyes, he was afraid this would hurt and he didn’t want Notti to see it in his eyes. He breathed...he just breathed...
Notti felt Yamapi’s narrow channel widening, he whispered nervously "What now..."
Yamapi answered quietly, "Now you enter me...just go slow I’ve never bottomed before."
Notti frowned, "Don’t you have to face the other way..."
Yamapi shook his head, "You can but I don’t want to that image, it brings you pain and I don’t want to bring that into bed with us anymore then we have to" He spread himself as wide as he could as he wrapped his legs as far up Notti’s back as he could reach, "Now...please...Nori..."
Notti nodded as he moved closer and pulled Yamapi onto him.
Yamapi relaxed and let Notti lead some more.
Notti sheathed himself as deep into Yamapi as he could go.
Yamapi gasped he could feel Notti’s balls right against his ass, Notti went in deep...he tried to move a little on the high schooler’s hardness.
Notti groaned as Yamapi rode him, he was inside Yamapi...actually inside him and he wasn’t hurting him.
Yamapi screamed, Notti found it...he actually found it...he always known it was there but he’d never felt this feeling. He moaned, "Nori..."
Notti worried for a moment but the look on Yamapi’s face was ecstasy, he’d managed to give him pleasure.
Yamapi needed release desperately; he reached for himself.
Notti couldn’t believe it, Yamapi was actually going to do it... he was going to fist himself.
Yamapi could hardly breathe with Notti pounding into him as he rode him as hard as he could...when he thrust into his own hand; he nearly lost it...
Notti could see how close Yamapi was to coming and he exploded.
Yamapi whimpered as he felt Notti coat him with the juices of their passion. He came hard and fast all over them both.
Notti felt the warm splash as Yamapi sprayed him with white.
Yamapi hugged him, "You were great...I loved it..."
Notti grinned, "I gave you everything I could...."
Yamapi nodded, "I know...and I took what you gave me. I’m glad I was the one who could teach you how good this can be...it feels different to be on the receiving end but I didn’t mind. I kind of liked it."
Notti whispered, "Can we just stay like this for awhile...I’m never felt so close to someone and I don’t want to lose this connection."
Yamapi smiled, "I don’t want you to move but we could lie down..."
Notti leaned them over until Yamapi was lying on the bed and he was sprawled out on top of him.
Yamapi held him tight, "I love you, Nori..."
Notti yawned, "I love you too, Hisa..."