Over ! ! ! =DDD . . . . =O OVER? ! ? D=
Today was the last day of the Spring semester for me!! Yay!!
I got through all of my finals fine, I guess. Right now I am just waiting to hear from Philosophy. I hope I did well in his class. In fact, let me do a quick check...
Yeah, still nothing up from that class! I would imagine it should take long, since it was all essay answer exam. And he has a bunch of students, no doubt. That's a lot to read and consider.
Anyway...
now I have all summer to decide what to do with the spare time. I'm not sure if I will take some summer classes, or if I should get a job (I definitely will have to study for the accuplacer in whatever possible way I can!), or just relax...which will get boring, so this is why i am considering doing something productive. I need to learn how to drive as well.
Well, it just hit me, that as exciting as all this is...I've possibly lost something...again D: ! !
YES, will he be back?!?! Is he leaving?!?! What's going to happen!! I'm so stupid to not have thought to ask. Instead I repeated myself more than 2 times and made myself look like a super serious and distant person. What the hell is wrong with me!!! I was nervous...oh yeah...but still!!
GAH, this sucks!!! What the hell am I going to do?!?!
He has 2 tests tomorrow. lol. I am done, I have no business going up there...nor do I think I should...that would be stalker-ish? no?
Omg. hahaha.
It is so unfortunate that the timing was so right for the worst of times! You see, I felt like complete shit today. First of all, I have been eating to an extreme excess...I have PMS symptoms (LOL, sorry for the detail), so I am breaking out quite a bit, and am moody as hell! I feel super heavy...what else...oh, well, I'm not much of myself...and I hurt my left eyeball yesterday resulting in a big red splatter off the side of my...what is it called? The actual sphere of eyes? I don't know, the brown of my eye? Lol. yeah, well, there is a huge red splatter, irritation, internal bleeding? Something of the sort. I dropped some eye drops in the eye this morning, but it didn't do much :(. So, let's put everything together. Oh yes, I also am having hair issues, and I dressed like a little stupid girl today, ahaha. Super flow-y top which I suppose only made me look like I was pregnant. Anyway...anyway...
I was feeling/experiencing:
-I am sick! runny nose and dry cough (and some phlegm in the throat)
-bloated feeling
-break-outs
-moody
-shitty wardrobe
-red demon eyeball
-lack of sleep
-gei hair
-nerves from examinations
Yes, and it had to be today, the day that I got a good opportunity to speak to him.
All I could think of after-wards were that of questions, about whether I made him think that I was un-interesting, as I had nothing interesting to say, lol
UGLY?!? Demon eyeballed. FUCKING EMBARRASSING, lol.
Shit, my clothes, omg, who dresses THAT BAD?!?
Pimples, and, NEEDS SLEEP. oh, and WTF is wrong with that eye?!?
This is what PMS symptoms make you feel and think of, negative things, :( lol
This SUCKS!!!
What is to be done now. How can I reach him? Can I? I'm so stupid...
dammit
I'm praying, and I'm willing to do just about whatever possible to not lose contact. If it is impossible for any reason...then I'll take that as a sign, and forget it.
But some effort should be made, because you can't expect everything to fall on your lap.
I got through all of my finals fine, I guess. Right now I am just waiting to hear from Philosophy. I hope I did well in his class. In fact, let me do a quick check...
Yeah, still nothing up from that class! I would imagine it should take long, since it was all essay answer exam. And he has a bunch of students, no doubt. That's a lot to read and consider.
Anyway...
now I have all summer to decide what to do with the spare time. I'm not sure if I will take some summer classes, or if I should get a job (I definitely will have to study for the accuplacer in whatever possible way I can!), or just relax...which will get boring, so this is why i am considering doing something productive. I need to learn how to drive as well.
Well, it just hit me, that as exciting as all this is...I've possibly lost something...again D: ! !
YES, will he be back?!?! Is he leaving?!?! What's going to happen!! I'm so stupid to not have thought to ask. Instead I repeated myself more than 2 times and made myself look like a super serious and distant person. What the hell is wrong with me!!! I was nervous...oh yeah...but still!!
GAH, this sucks!!! What the hell am I going to do?!?!
He has 2 tests tomorrow. lol. I am done, I have no business going up there...nor do I think I should...that would be stalker-ish? no?
Omg. hahaha.
It is so unfortunate that the timing was so right for the worst of times! You see, I felt like complete shit today. First of all, I have been eating to an extreme excess...I have PMS symptoms (LOL, sorry for the detail), so I am breaking out quite a bit, and am moody as hell! I feel super heavy...what else...oh, well, I'm not much of myself...and I hurt my left eyeball yesterday resulting in a big red splatter off the side of my...what is it called? The actual sphere of eyes? I don't know, the brown of my eye? Lol. yeah, well, there is a huge red splatter, irritation, internal bleeding? Something of the sort. I dropped some eye drops in the eye this morning, but it didn't do much :(. So, let's put everything together. Oh yes, I also am having hair issues, and I dressed like a little stupid girl today, ahaha. Super flow-y top which I suppose only made me look like I was pregnant. Anyway...anyway...
I was feeling/experiencing:
-I am sick! runny nose and dry cough (and some phlegm in the throat)
-bloated feeling
-break-outs
-moody
-shitty wardrobe
-red demon eyeball
-lack of sleep
-gei hair
-nerves from examinations
Yes, and it had to be today, the day that I got a good opportunity to speak to him.
All I could think of after-wards were that of questions, about whether I made him think that I was un-interesting, as I had nothing interesting to say, lol
UGLY?!? Demon eyeballed. FUCKING EMBARRASSING, lol.
Shit, my clothes, omg, who dresses THAT BAD?!?
Pimples, and, NEEDS SLEEP. oh, and WTF is wrong with that eye?!?
This is what PMS symptoms make you feel and think of, negative things, :( lol
This SUCKS!!!
What is to be done now. How can I reach him? Can I? I'm so stupid...
dammit
I'm praying, and I'm willing to do just about whatever possible to not lose contact. If it is impossible for any reason...then I'll take that as a sign, and forget it.
But some effort should be made, because you can't expect everything to fall on your lap.