Ripping apart
Should I blame myself for making the loopholes in my life in hope that the person will fill it up for me? Should I blame myself also for being short-sighted and expecting too much of the person's abilities in filling up my loopholes? Or should I just blame myself for being myself, craving to be pleased emotionally?
I am a fool for making those loopholes. But shouldn't you be able to see the reason as to why I make them?
T_T I guess signing off is the only way for me to stop an outburst. I've tried to make myself happy but the generator(the person) just wouldn't participate. I thought that's what we're supposed to do: pull each other up when something is wrong. Or is this another couply act that you refuse to take on?
I don't know what exactly is our problem. One head alone will not be able to think as efficiently.
I wish too that by closing one eye, pretending to be deaf and acting that nothing is wrong will solve our problem.
I am a fool for making those loopholes. But shouldn't you be able to see the reason as to why I make them?
T_T I guess signing off is the only way for me to stop an outburst. I've tried to make myself happy but the generator(the person) just wouldn't participate. I thought that's what we're supposed to do: pull each other up when something is wrong. Or is this another couply act that you refuse to take on?
I don't know what exactly is our problem. One head alone will not be able to think as efficiently.
I wish too that by closing one eye, pretending to be deaf and acting that nothing is wrong will solve our problem.